JourNey...Its all About

All is New =)

2012-02-13T12:34:00.003+08:00

yes,, all is new..

# life ( working, research & personnel)

# environment

#Hp ~ casing merah youuuuuuuu~ wow, its mean that, every year tukar Hp heheheh*teh dearie, sile jealous yer,,wakakakkakakaka * nk tourch ke nak bold, free jer, tp treat me with good food when kitorng balik nti =)

# laptop MBA tuuuuuuuuu (mr hub, sile ler dengkki2 ngn i lghahahahaha)

hahhahahahah

hahahhahahaha yes,, all i have now is ALL NEW..

need to install a programme on me especially to adapt with the new life as student, worker and most important is as a WIFE to Siddiq Hafiz

being a full time housewife for a weeks reminds me to mummy...

after a weeks of probation period by siddiq..

so, die rate 4.5/5..

not bad la, just lost 0.5 out of 5 sbb he said, im failed in kemas + lipat2 baju..

(mane aci main gangtung2, lipat la)

huhuhu mummy, you're so adorable =)

im proud of your determination being a full time housewife

this week is my first week of my schooling,

hoping everything will fine

" kaaf, Haa, Yaa, Ain, Saad"

"robbi zidni ilmaa"

ameen !!!!

the door we open & closed each day decide the lives we live

~flora whittermore~

Two-o-one-two

2012-01-03T23:19:00.006+08:00

Happy New year 2012
alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah
i was very good for the whole year of 2011
everything went well
and it was one of the best year of my journey's history
alhamdulillah =)

Dear Allah,
I wanna take a minute,
not to ask anything from you,
but to thank you for what I already have...
Alhamdulillah Ya Allah

So, for this year, i would like to wish for Allah bless my love ones (husband, parents, siblings, friends + inlaws) and everyones with love, happiness, good health, patience and iman. May Allah grant me and husbands to have a succesfull year in our studie so that we both can published more and more papers high impact factor journal and presenting paper in beautiful place (menyelam sambil minum air hehehhe) and the most important is i wish Allah will ease all my ways in every angles of my life, ameen !!!

colorful Monday ;)

2011-12-05T09:27:00.006+08:00

Rasullah SAW bersabda yg bermaksud:

"Puasa Hari 'Asyura, sungguh aku berharap kepada Allah agar menghapuskan dosa setahun yang telah lalu"

(HR Muslim, no.1975)

*nyonya cafe*

seasonal favorite =)

cntikkan color kuih tu :)

*psitttt*

family outing with sistas & younger bro

**sistas**

dear heart

2011-11-16T09:34:00.002+08:00

Dear heart

please be strong,,,

don't cry please !!!

It just a minor test from your Creator

please be strong !!!

nasi kuning

2011-11-12T16:40:00.005+08:00

111111 was so special

so i made "special colored rice" for him

at first, nk buat nasi color pink,

tp bile memikirkan he's not into color,

so i end up with egg yolk color rice jer,

if not, ade jgk org yg kena makan nasi color pink =)

He: arini special kan???

me: apsal plak special??

He: ni kan u masak special !

Me: yer ker? cm biase jer, cume nasi jer special sket

He: sedap !

Me: sedap???

wake at 10 am, as him to text our labmate

yippiiiieeee another 2 months to yip yip horrayyyy

sooooooo holidayyyyy mood on planning =)

111111

2011-11-11T10:32:00.002+08:00

woww..

today is 111111 and its friday

very nice digits

wishing the great thing will happens

yess,,it will be great thing happen =)

"hoping for the time to fly fast,

Mr. decemberm do come faster please

Dear Mr. december, please do kind enough to me

do kind to my friends too

we waiting for u Mr December

and dont forget to bring the great news for us

ameen,"

yess

2011-11-03T18:11:00.003+08:00

"yesss...

continue ...

im confident with your result"

so???

senyum,,senyum,,senyum

yeeehahaaaaaaa

besarnye nikmat Mu ya Allah..

alhmdllh, alhmdllh, alhmdllh

semoga segala dipermudahkan ameen =)

what a blissfull life =)

2011-11-02T12:16:00.004+08:00

current mood : happy =)

alhmdllah, alhamdllh, alhamdlh

syukur ya Allah..

What a bless of life from u ya Allah.

received call next duty inshaallah =)

received email from co-ordinator =) deadline for submission is jan 20, 2012)

yeyyaaaaaaaaa

chromatogram results wass sooooooooo amazing after almost 1 month analysis and stresss here and there, at last u were kind enough to me =)

immmmm sooo happy...

alhmdllh =)

did call and text my husband, mummy, sis and bestiesss

dfntly double triple yeyayyyyyyyyyyy

ok guysss lets party =)

wait for tea time in Kl tower as promised =)

and not forgotten to my little oleng, do wait for ipad 2 from me okiessssssss =)

iphne n ipad, u can just handover to ur bubu =)

ehhehehehee

im happy..

thnk you Allah for this fruitful blisss

" la tahzan, innallah ha' maana"

He knew everything the best for everyone

so dh leh start to berangan for longgggggggggg holiday

mr hubs, please take note :)

*** 011109***011110***101111***

Al-Fatihah

you're always in my loving remembrance

lovely fridayy

2011-10-14T12:23:00.003+08:00

am still having lovely friday even :
1)due date is killing me...
2) experiment's results is unexpected
3) not enough sleep (2 hours slept )

its all about my silly mistakes and last minutes preparation...
Thanks Ya Allah for today's blessed =)

سُوۡرَةُ الکهف
بِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ

ٱلۡحَمۡدُ لِلَّهِ ٱلَّذِىٓ أَنزَلَ عَلَىٰ عَبۡدِهِ ٱلۡكِتَـٰبَ وَلَمۡ يَجۡعَل لَّهُ ۥ عِوَجَاۜ (١) قَيِّمً۬ا لِّيُنذِرَ بَأۡسً۬ا شَدِيدً۬ا مِّن لَّدُنۡهُ وَيُبَشِّرَ ٱلۡمُؤۡمِنِينَ ٱلَّذِينَ يَعۡمَلُونَ ٱلصَّـٰلِحَـٰتِ أَنَّ لَهُمۡ أَجۡرًا حَسَنً۬ا

im just too excited for oleng's birthday party
and majlis kesyukuran dan doa selamat tomorrow
for his speedy recovery from virus infection
past few weeks =)

Dear aliff rayyan
happy 2 years old dear
we pray the best for u und your future undertaking
we love you

Adrenaline rushhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!

2011-10-13T11:05:00.007+08:00

adrenaline rushhhh.!!!goshhhh!!!!

it happen to everybody, and now,one of them is ME...

Arrrghhhh, due date is killing me!!!

really hoping by next weeks will settle everything,,

when comes to results and discussion, im like crying,....

seriously its killing me,

what to write on???

whats to discuss about???

clueless!!!!!

im just praying and keep praying miracles will happens!!!

im just want to wrap up everything ASAP coz wanna have holiday peaceful =)

so im just hoping my best to HIM, Inshaallah =)

"Turn to Allah , He’s never far away , Put your trust in Him , Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah , Guide my steps don’t let me go astray , You’re the only one who could show me the way, Show me the way, Show me the way, Show me the ways
InshaAllah, InshaAllah, we’ll find our way"

an Exit

2011-10-12T00:05:00.004+08:00

Life is an adventure and let’s takes this challenge. If you can't stay, if you can't find the exit door here, find in yourself and go further in your search. Never ever give up.

بِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ

ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنُ (١) عَلَّمَ ٱلۡقُرۡءَانَ (٢) خَلَقَ ٱلۡإِنسَـٰنَ (٣) عَلَّمَهُ ٱلۡبَيَانَ (٤) ٱلشَّمۡسُ وَٱلۡقَمَرُ بِحُسۡبَانٍ۬ (٥) وَٱلنَّجۡمُ وَٱلشَّجَرُ يَسۡجُدَانِ (٦) وَٱلسَّمَآءَ رَفَعَهَا وَوَضَعَ ٱلۡمِيزَانَ (٧) أَلَّا تَطۡغَوۡاْ فِى ٱلۡمِيزَانِ (٨) وَأَقِيمُواْ ٱلۡوَزۡنَ بِٱلۡقِسۡطِ وَلَا تُخۡسِرُواْ ٱلۡمِيزَانَ (٩) وَٱلۡأَرۡضَ وَضَعَهَا لِلۡأَنَامِ (١٠) فِيہَا فَـٰكِهَةٌ۬ وَٱلنَّخۡلُ ذَاتُ ٱلۡأَكۡمَامِ (١١) وَٱلۡحَبُّ ذُو ٱلۡعَصۡفِ وَٱلرَّيۡحَانُ (١٢) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (١٣) خَلَقَ ٱلۡإِنسَـٰنَ مِن صَلۡصَـٰلٍ۬ كَٱلۡفَخَّارِ (١٤) وَخَلَقَ ٱلۡجَآنَّ مِن مَّارِجٍ۬ مِّن نَّارٍ۬ (١٥) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (١٦) رَبُّ ٱلۡمَشۡرِقَيۡنِ وَرَبُّ ٱلۡمَغۡرِبَيۡنِ (١٧) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (١٨) مَرَجَ ٱلۡبَحۡرَيۡنِ يَلۡتَقِيَانِ (١٩) بَيۡنَہُمَا بَرۡزَخٌ۬ لَّا يَبۡغِيَانِ (٢٠) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٢١) يَخۡرُجُ مِنۡہُمَا ٱللُّؤۡلُؤُ وَٱلۡمَرۡجَانُ (٢٢) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٢٣) وَلَهُ ٱلۡجَوَارِ ٱلۡمُنشَـَٔاتُ فِى ٱلۡبَحۡرِ كَٱلۡأَعۡلَـٰمِ (٢٤) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٢٥) كُلُّ مَنۡ عَلَيۡہَا فَانٍ۬ (٢٦) وَيَبۡقَىٰ وَجۡهُ رَبِّكَ ذُو ٱلۡجَلَـٰلِ وَٱلۡإِكۡرَامِ (٢٧) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٢٨) يَسۡـَٔلُهُ ۥ مَن فِى ٱلسَّمَـٰوَٲتِ وَٱلۡأَرۡضِ‌ۚ كُلَّ يَوۡمٍ هُوَ فِى شَأۡنٍ۬ (٢٩) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٣٠) سَنَفۡرُغُ لَكُمۡ أَيُّهَ ٱلثَّقَلَانِ (٣١) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٣٢) يَـٰمَعۡشَرَ ٱلۡجِنِّ وَٱلۡإِنسِ إِنِ ٱسۡتَطَعۡتُمۡ أَن تَنفُذُواْ مِنۡ أَقۡطَارِ ٱلسَّمَـٰوَٲتِ وَٱلۡأَرۡضِ فَٱنفُذُواْ‌ۚ لَا تَنفُذُونَ إِلَّا بِسُلۡطَـٰنٍ۬ (٣٣) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٣٤) يُرۡسَلُ عَلَيۡكُمَا شُوَاظٌ۬ مِّن نَّارٍ۬ وَنُحَاسٌ۬ فَلَا تَنتَصِرَانِ (٣٥) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٣٦) فَإِذَا ٱنشَقَّتِ ٱلسَّمَآءُ فَكَانَتۡ وَرۡدَةً۬ كَٱلدِّهَانِ (٣٧) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٣٨) فَيَوۡمَٮِٕذٍ۬ لَّا يُسۡـَٔلُ عَن ذَنۢبِهِۦۤ إِنسٌ۬ وَلَا جَآنٌّ۬ (٣٩) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّڪُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٤٠) يُعۡرَفُ ٱلۡمُجۡرِمُونَ بِسِيمَـٰهُمۡ فَيُؤۡخَذُ بِٱلنَّوَٲصِى وَٱلۡأَقۡدَامِ (٤١) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٤٢) هَـٰذِهِۦ جَهَنَّمُ ٱلَّتِى يُكَذِّبُ بِہَا ٱلۡمُجۡرِمُونَ (٤٣) يَطُوفُونَ بَيۡنَہَا وَبَيۡنَ حَمِيمٍ ءَانٍ۬ (٤٤) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٤٥) وَلِمَنۡ خَافَ مَقَامَ رَبِّهِۦ جَنَّتَانِ (٤٦) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٤٧) ذَوَاتَآ أَفۡنَانٍ۬ (٤٨) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٤٩) فِيہِمَا عَيۡنَانِ تَجۡرِيَانِ (٥٠) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٥١) فِيہِمَا مِن كُلِّ فَـٰكِهَةٍ۬ زَوۡجَانِ (٥٢) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٥٣) مُتَّكِـِٔينَ عَلَىٰ فُرُشِۭ بَطَآٮِٕنُہَا مِنۡ إِسۡتَبۡرَقٍ۬‌ۚ وَجَنَى ٱلۡجَنَّتَيۡنِ دَانٍ۬ (٥٤) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٥٥) فِيہِنَّ قَـٰصِرَٲتُ ٱلطَّرۡفِ لَمۡ يَطۡمِثۡہُنَّ إِنسٌ۬ قَبۡلَهُمۡ وَلَا جَآنٌّ۬ (٥٦) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٥٧) كَأَنَّہُنَّ ٱلۡيَاقُوتُ وَٱلۡمَرۡجَانُ (٥٨) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٥٩) هَلۡ جَزَآءُ ٱلۡإِحۡسَـٰنِ إِلَّا ٱلۡإِحۡسَـٰنُ (٦٠) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٦١) وَمِن دُونِہِمَا جَنَّتَانِ (٦٢) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٦٣) مُدۡهَآمَّتَانِ (٦٤) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٦٥) فِيہِمَا عَيۡنَانِ نَضَّاخَتَانِ (٦٦) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٦٧) فِيہِمَا فَـٰكِهَةٌ۬ وَنَخۡلٌ۬ وَرُمَّانٌ۬ (٦٨) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٦٩) فِيہِنَّ خَيۡرَٲتٌ حِسَانٌ۬ (٧٠) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٧١) حُورٌ۬ مَّقۡصُورَٲتٌ۬ فِى ٱلۡخِيَامِ (٧٢) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٧٣) لَمۡ يَطۡمِثۡہُنَّ إِنسٌ۬ قَبۡلَهُمۡ وَلَا جَآنٌّ۬ (٧٤) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٧٥) مُتَّكِـِٔينَ عَلَىٰ رَفۡرَفٍ خُضۡرٍ۬ وَعَبۡقَرِىٍّ حِسَانٍ۬ (٧٦) فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ (٧٧) تَبَـٰرَكَ ٱسۡمُ رَبِّكَ ذِى ٱلۡجَلَـٰلِ وَٱلۡإِكۡرَامِ (٧٨)

counting the daysssss

2011-10-04T15:05:00.003+08:00

counting the day..

for hubs & little oleng

chaiyok !!!!!

2011-09-29T16:27:00.003+08:00

"i suspected there's some mistake
maybe long time exposure during the the surface modification
or maybe the concentration is too low"
=(

A heart always has something that desires. But we don't usually get what we want. Instead, we get what we need. And, what we want is not necessarily what we need. It could get twisted there and when it does, it gives our heart a hard time. The hardest part is to see it coming and to accept the fact that you are not getting what you expect to get. The second hardest thing is to let it go. They say it all started with a dream, but sometime we would wish to have never fallen asleep.Now that would be a silly mistake. Instead of wishing the past never happen, it is better to focus on what's happening today coz the future is not ours to see.

So i should use every precious time we plan to spend worrying about future,
by living well and by putting effort for a better tomorrow.

chaiyok
chaiyok
chaiyok

:: its a year of married life ::

2011-09-15T15:35:00.013+08:00

12 sept 2011..
its our ist anniversaryry of married life
alhmdllh, alhmdllh, alhmdllh
how time flies.....

"Among His signs is [the fact] that He has created spouses for you among yourselves so that you may dwell in tranquillity with them, and He has planted love and mercy between you;
In that are signs for people who reflect." [30:21]

Dear hub,
happy 1st anniversary
thnk you for being my husband, buddy, roommate, housemate, classmate, labmate (heheheheh)
& future daddy
sorry for all my doingwrong
i love you so strong
i love uuuuu

the family

2011-08-23T10:06:00.002+08:00

The family.
We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together

raye checklist =(

2011-08-22T13:48:00.002+08:00

raye checklist =(
1) baju raye kami suami isteri - done ( 7 psg even xraye ngn fmly ..sobseksesksek)
2) biskut raye - done (tart nenas + almond london)
3) zakat fitrah - done (suami yg bayarkan)
4) duit raye - done ( baru jer balik tukar duit kt bnk)
5) baju raye tuk olengku syg - done
6) balik kg kt kelate - not done =( sobseksobseksobseks

when spoke to mummy regarding balik kelate for raye
im too unhappy..
she want me to be wif my husbnd..
i mmg dpt cuti,,die jer yg kena oncall aka stndby...
huhuhuu

me : nk blik kg jgk la ngn kakak n teh, boleh x
mummy : siddiq dh dpt cuti ker??
me: x, i balik sorang la,,
mummy: so, siddiq cmne? xpyh balik la, raye same2 la ngn siddiq,kan ni 1st time raye as husband and wife..
me : huhuu npe palk???dh xsyg nana ker??
mummy: bukan, tmpat isteri kn ngn bersame2 suami, susah and senang..
lg pun time raye kan tu..mane die nk makan ...
me: ala, makan la ape yg ptt..kuih raye kan ade..
mummy : xpyh la,,, beraye ngn sddiq la,,sggup ker nk tglkan sddiq sorang2..
me : ala,,klu nana ade ngn die pun, die g keje, nana sorang2 gak kt umh..
mummy: xper la, atleast die balik umh, u ade..
me: nak balik jgakkkkk=((((huwaaaaaaaaaa,
mummy : raye la same2 berdua suami isteri, kan tu lebih baik, tmpat isteri kan di sisi suami

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...sdhnye...bnci !!!!!!!!!!
conclusion: xblik raye so kami mybe akan beraye bersame2 di lab =)
smbil mnyiapkan ape2 yg patut..
duedate yg mnnti =(

frenzssss

2011-08-10T11:14:00.005+08:00

My friends are the craziest idiots i knows..
but i love them so strong
thnks God for this such wnderful idiots ever i had

** bile dh jumpe, mcm2 jer alasan nk pnteng keje n clss**
xlrt nk bgun pgi, sakit perut,nk demam,
whtver..i just love to be with u guys..
u always make my days perfects

Patience is Half of imaan

2011-08-08T12:32:00.008+08:00

Patience is Half of imaan

bersabar dengan setiap dugaan yg telah diberikan olehNya
time!!!!! i need u pleaseee!!!!!!!!
i need u for editing..
editing n editing n still editing

Inshaallha i'll be fine..
coz He with me anywhere, anytime ..

menu for 7th rmdhan.
cempedak goreng evrydays for him..kedai mali maaa

puding mnnga..handmade ; letak air then didihkan then hidang

Berdua lebih baik =)

2011-08-07T11:27:00.013+08:00

we had a wonderful sunday monday..

thank you allah for the taste of ramadhan kareem for 7th days..

anothor 23 days to go ...

Solat subuh berjamaah di masjid shah alam..

had attended kuliah subuh..

the ustaz was so awesome. terengganurianz..

at first,ade gak terdetik kt ustaz ni,,apsel la ustaz ni ganz sgt n cakap2 kasar..

rupenyer mmg dh stayle die cmtu =)
the kuliah subuh was interesting..

simple topics n easy to digest,,,

inshaallh,,
moga2 ilmu yg diperolehi kekal untuk selamamnye for better life improvement,
inshaallah =)

Ya allah, ampunla dosa2 kami..

terimalah ibdah puase kami..

kurniakanlah kami kebahagian n kekayaan dunia aakhirat

semoga kami dapat berbakti di jalanMu..

ya allah trimala amalan n ibdah kami..

hanya padaMu kami beremohon..

ameenn...

before sahur, kami berdrama2..huhjuhhuu

rupenyer ssh nk kejutkan org tua bangun sahur...

smpaikan bertekak2 di pagi buta =(

before panakan lauk till siap, he's still wont wake up..

eeiii geramnyeeeee..sabr jer ler..then mula bising2 n bebel2...

ya allah,, so strong and sabar mummy was semate2 untuk kejutkan kitorang smpai bangun for almost past 30 years

piccas :the menu's when he homed for second days
enjoys the piccs coz it speak louder than words

colorful veges..alhamdllh, nowsm for almost 1 years of merrid life, i mange to cook 'well' for two of us..and also thnks Allah coz he'd love whatever i cooked...
now, he can digest colors veges..hehehhe
thats miracle of love..

thnk you allah =)

all for our menu of 6th ramadhan

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yessss...
berdua lebih baik...

sbb bile berdua i rase ter'rajin' tuk masak =)

when i posted a pic of our meals on facebook,

a friend of mine did commented 'Bertiga lebih ceria, berempat gamat suasana:) "

hehehhe insyaallh,

2012 akan bertiga,,berempat pun lagi baguss

doakan kami..

nasi hujan panas with ayam kerutuk and chikec kebab
kurma+ strwbry+caremel puding

for 5th day of ramadhan kareem

our menu for breaking fast on the first days he''s homed (5th of Ramadhan)

as im alone =(

2011-08-07T10:59:00.008+08:00

as im alone at home..
i was cooked a simple dishs..
cooked some rices and a fried fish as for my breaking fast menu..
and to be kind to my health, i'd have a raw ccmber grilled tomatoes
tadaaaaaa...
the simple menu of mine for my 4th of ramadhan kareem
alhmdllh..it suite well with my taste eventhough without any kuah

when have a phone conversation with mummy, she was a bit upset with my meals..
and ask me why im too lazy to buy or prepare some better food to feed up since this is ramdhan..
at least you'd have somthing nice + healthy to celebrate your 14hours of fasting
huhhuhuu
ok mum,,will do when my husband's here =)
im really kagum with mummy..
everyday without fail, she managed to preraed atleast two or three lauk, sayurs and two or three desserts ...

Ya allah,,

ampunilah dosaku, dosa suami ku, ibubapaku and seluruh kaum kelurgaku serta umat iuslam..
Engkau kurniakanlah kesihatan, kekuatan dan kesabaran kepada mummy, abah, mok tok, tok, tok ayah, baby and hakimi dalam menjalani ibadah puase di sane..
berikan mereka pahala ibadah yg tertinggi di sisiMu Ya allah..
Ya allah, engkau terimala amalan puasa kami ya allah..
sesunnguhnye hanye engkau tmpat kami bermohon....

Ramadhan Eids

2011-08-04T11:11:00.005+08:00

Ramadhan Eids everyone ....
4th day of ramadhan was very awesome for us..
blessing with Him to taste the ramadhan season smoothly...
long holiday with beloved family was super great for us..
thank you Allah for all..
hopefully our ramadhan this years will be filled with many many many blesssing from Him.
may Allah listend to all of aour prayers and doa's and accepted all our ibadah..

since mummy was the person who love cooking,
soo many foods were prepared for breaking fast..
without any guilty at al.,
mine, having food tersangatla byk...
huhuhu seriously byk,,,
but now, back to normal, coz im homed alone
just milky shake + fruits + simpel pasta for breaking fast
no nasi kerabu daging bakar + cendol, pulut serimuke + caramel puding + ikan sumbat + kerutuk ayam + sup gear box + no others all time favourite meals from mummy
for atleast a couples of weeks.
telling you, im aklready missed my mummy's food
sobsekseobsekkkkkkk
huhuhhhhh
Im just doing fine,
surviving without my family here..
evrything goes fine..
coz i've my sistas n husbnd here
sobsekseskseks

as promised before,this month will be the most busiest month for us..
strgling to finish up the paper's writting..
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
journals and articles are waiting ...
banyak nyer nk kena baceeeee
sempat ker????
Ya Allah,, please guide us..
give us a stregth to finish it in one piece...
aminn..

i am

2011-07-26T11:04:00.002+08:00

waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting!!!!!!!
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and
waiting till the knot

fever mood =(

2011-07-21T10:36:00.005+08:00

currently, we are in fever mood
flu,running nose, sore throat infection + coughing

huhhhh this make me seriously thinking of not going to school today..

but what to do, a tones of works waiting for me befero i've a long holiday on next weeks

so, i put my spirit, so that i wont felt any guilty for not doing my works..
since i'd promise to my husband n supervisor to submit n discuss everything by 20th sep
omg, the due date is just one month...
ok..just to be nice to myself, i keep telling, its ok, raye nti xbalik kg,
so, will strunggle on that time =)

yesterday, i had an appoinment with DR. L sanker V.
a consultant physician/gastroenterologist/hepatologist
so the medical resulst was awesome..
but still have to improve
nyway, thank you DR,,
i heart you more <3 hehehhe
so next appointment is another nxt two month
after hari raye
yeayyyyyyyyyy

there's are three inportant date in sept
meeting supervisor,wdding annvsy + DR shnker's appointmnt
frenzs, wish me luck for evrytsingle minute i'll face ok..
and also thnk you very much for for always being my shoulders to cry on everytime i needed
heart you all <3

this budak also currently in fever mood
im thinking, its very hard to be a mothers..
espcally during demam mode..
kejap2 kena bangun sbb vomitting, kejap2 coughing2, kejap2 mngis..
omg, sshnyer being a mother

Is't Monday ?

2011-07-11T12:21:00.004+08:00

It's monday today
wishing it is not
coz mine is dfntly blurr's monday

this pic was taken by him
just to say that he missed me during his meeting

y u took this pic n said u'd missed me???
coz we always has this type of food yg mmggemukkan u and me
lolllllll
just that reason my daerrrrr
that a life of love

no choc but sugar =)

2011-07-08T16:31:00.005+08:00

i reqeust sweet and choc from siddiq last week,
spntaneosly NO, but u can have sugar..
im with wierd face asking him wht!!!!????????????
i dfntly will give u sugar, he said
"sugar glider"
i think, i love sugar glider
weekend ni jum kite g beli sugar glider tau...
aiiiiiiiiii u ni betul ke x???
sejak bile u suke binatang2 ni???
i saje2 jer...
cute kan.
i cm nk beli jer, stu untuk kite, and satu lagi kite bg hadiah kt goleng..
u ni buang tabiat ker ape??/nti mati binatang tu goleng pijak..
alaa..binatang tu kan hidup, pandaila die nk slmtkan die bile goleng nk pijak2 die..
nti time i kt melake, u la jg die, time weekend, i yg jaga..
sugar glider ni xbusuk la syg, die bkn cm hamster
me dfntely NO..i dont like any binatang2..

klau u nk beli, bwk blik melake,
ltk kt umh mlke or letak kt ofc u..
eeiiii nth ape2 org tua ni,,tetibe jd pencinta binatang la plak
pelik222222
so this weekend is his mission for sugar glider's hunter

gmbo ni ciliok dri pak supir google =)

penat otak =(

2011-07-05T10:36:00.005+08:00

otak tgh weng2..
cannot think properly loooo
smlm xdpt tdoooo
ni msti effct seteguk coffee yg di cilok
how strong it be!!!!!

p/s:
yesterday is the firts days the slimming program (first time yg dh ke berape kali dah)
heharap this time not just hangat2 taik ayam
start cardiac exrcse + sauna

proudly telling u,
almost 3 weeks i'v no nasi lemak 0r mee goreng or wht so ever yg related to chlstrol for bfast n dinner
just a glass of choc shake + lemon tea herbalife
yaeayyyyyy good job =)
and sedikit terperasan cam dh susut sikit...
sbb cam dh ade space skit bile pakai inner wear n baju2..
tmbah2 lgi bile mr hubs sndri yg bgtau =)

"syg, i rase u dh kurus sket la,
dh kurang dh lemak2 u kt sini,
rase cm sng dh nk peluk2 u...
dh kecik dah u sket
arr la,,dh kecik la..
bgus2, so i bg u hadiah la"

yeayyyyyy riang tak terkata
sbb die bg hdiah n onnn jer mmnjng klu ajak kuar =)
tq ,, love u more,,muahzzzzzz =)

ni adalah si golengggggg
goleng si paku goleng....
mak bapak die adelah org yg paling kmbang..
sbb pg jer mane2 sume org ckp cute..
siap tegur2 n amek gmbor lg..
for me, cute la,,tp lm xgmbo xsgt,xphotognc pun =)

tp kami adik beradik siap mngaku si goleng tu ank kami bile org ckp die cute=)
sugguh perasan kan..
mr hubs pun ckp, goleng tu cute la,,
biarla our kids nti cute ala2 goleng pun jd la =)
senyum sampai telinga =)
poyossssss =)

pic taken during my mc's hang out
org mc duk rest kt umh.
tp i siap leh g shpping2 lagi =)
haiyaaaaaaaaa

saturday & Sunday gate away

2011-07-04T13:08:00.005+08:00

sunday gate away =)
even keje berlambak2 yg kena siapkan...
byknyer nk kena update literature n paper write up
tp cm selamba bdak jer buat2 xtahu..
come on la..its july already,,,
another 2 month to go..
seems thts, we, both keep giving thousandddddddddd excuses jer..
uhuhuhuuu...
Prof radzi dearie, do forgive us
janji, kami akan jd students yg baik n rajin =)
and submit ASAP

anyway ,,,,stop talking about studies..
the curve n ikea destination yg dituju
shops heavenly without rase bersalah
grabs shoes, shirts n etc...
and also groceriessss for our new home

thennn....
my sis homeee for lepak2 bola...

sabtu plak,
had famly shopping a.k.a raye shooping
my sides grey n in laws brownish
kami berdua just recycle mane yg ade jer (bju rcption n wdding aritu)
masalahnyer,, muat ker????
a veryyyyyyy big question mark there =)))))

and...
presenting my first time ever masak lemak putih petola...
nmpk mnyelerakannn...
bak kate ani q ber..nmpk sdp, rase belum tentuuuu
hellooooo kwn2..sedap!!!!!!xcye tnye siddiq.......
ok mls nk merapu lg..
oppss lupe plak, ahd msk blckpper chicken..lupe nk amek pic
so enjoys the msk lmk pic jer la =)

menarik bukannnnn ????

greenish Friday =)

2011-07-01T10:54:00.004+08:00

Greenish friday morning
asking the best from Him
inshaallah..

* happy birthday*
**sweet 30th, 1981-2011**
***rest in peace sayang***
***u're in my loving rememberance***
****Al-Fatihah****

=(

2011-06-17T12:50:00.001+08:00

bnciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
bnciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
bnciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
baik xde dri ade
klu ade mnykit ati jer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

very2 lembap n stupid !!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-06-15T15:15:00.003+08:00

grmnye ngn bnk rakyat niiiiiiiiiiii
very2 the stupid la..
hot line konon!!
tp nk agkat phone punye ler lembapppppppppp giler

seb baik kakak yg handle case ni baik n helpful
pelik bin jaib, apsal duit shock rm1050 every month
padahal loan just rm550 jer..
haiyaaaaaaaaa...
stupid...
seb baik tertengok payslip..
klu x, smpai sdh xtau..
n seb baik gak mr suami seorag yg teliti with the documents
1050 tu byk weiiiiiii..leh wt byr installmnt kete dh tu kalu tmbh duit sketttttt
gerammmmmmmm!!!!!!!!

duit duit

2011-06-15T09:36:00.003+08:00

Duit duit,,
mne ko duit..
npe cpt sgt ko run away????

arini baru 14th,, nk tgu end of the months,
still long way to go
tp purse dh makin nipis =(
dulu, time postgrad, schlar just 2300++, tp cukup jer,
siap leh spent rm500-700 ++ plus2 lgi tuk beli gundum
tp skrg..habok pun tarak...
spttnye duit tuk beli gundum tuk leh masuk asb tuk longterm invesmnt
tp nthla...
skrg sume mahal ...gna alsan untuk tdk blme diri sndri =(

huhuhuu, btulla, bduit byk masuk, nafsu + keinginan pun byk...
bile di pikir2 n di kire2,,just dlm saving plusminus 700 jer..
tu pun kekadang jer..
yag lain masuk perut n jadik taik jer

pelik btul la, xpelik pun sbnrnye
rm2000 umh
rm550 umh sewa
kete rm1550
crdit card rm350
personal loan rm550
parent rm1000(tp kkdg 800 jer,)
petrol rm 250
tol rm 150
expnses (food + entrnmt) rm 600
others (Shopping etc) rm500

nthla labu =(
keje kuli cmni la..
dpt duit ujung bulan, then abisssssss
cm terpkir jgk nk buat bsness tp bsness apa???

mr hubs pnh ckp..
we have 2 choice to upgrde the slary
either mgrate to UAE or tggnu,
which one u'd choose
i'd said, NO way!!! both i dont want
reason : i hate both
coz i dont want being sorrounded by those type of people
i hate arabic people,
coz for me, they are very 2 rude + smelly + busuks in all aspect
!!!!!i dont like
if i'd choose trggnu, its hard for me to shop,,hohohooho cannot et all =(
but im still thinking his offer..
huhuhuhu im think , now it is not the right time to mgrte there..
huhuhuuuhuhu

no matter wht,
if use the money wisely, still on..
so, will start to berjimat crmat

okkkkkkk
on december we'll be in Oz and end of jan we'll in Netherland
HOORAYYYYYYYY
then focus for "baby making"
to all my panadolianzz "baby making" okeys

abah' birthday =)

2011-06-13T16:47:00.005+08:00

Happy birthday abah,

I miss those days when your strong shoulders were the highest place on earth.
But I just want to tell you Daddy, no matter how much time passes and how old I become, you will always be my superman.

You taught me how to talk, you even held my hand and made me walk.
You filled my mind with knowledge and understanding, that I would never be able to learn if not for you. Thank you for everything. I love you abah.
i'm so grateful that I have you as our abah
Thanks for always believing in me.
Thanks for all the support that you have given to me
It's truly a blessing to have you as a father.
You are the best Dad in the world.

the menu was kfc, jgung rebus, cheesy pottatoes, salads + manggo
pic lupe nk snap
sbb sume dh lapar giler =)

P/s ; tqvm for mummy (kopek buah n prepared all dishes)
sis + abe ariff (spnsor the goreng2 + celup2 food)
mr hubb (spnsr kfc)
apids + yen kimi + me (tukang makan n tolong ape2 yg ptt)

my beautiful sister =)

2011-06-07T16:32:00.004+08:00

accidently found my sis's old picc (2009)
she with her bff

beautiful face of hers inborned from my mummy
she's beautiful isn't it?

p/s: i love her beatiful face witout scft..
cntik!!! but mr hubb said, y cmtu?doala die pakai tdng, cntik mmg cntik freehair, tp tu kt dunia jer, kt akhirat???
terus kelu n emo tibe2...
huhuhuuu ok..kite doa, now, she's bertudng, but still on off

yukikaze dulu sllu mngusik i yg i ni anak angkt sbb dah la gemuk, hitam plak tu..org lain sume kecik2 n putih2, tetibe i ni gemuk n gelap,,sah2 la anak angkat,but i still love u even u tu anak agkt mummy n abh =)
yukikaze, miss u a lot =)
al-fatihah,
u're in my loving rememberance

will pray the best for her
semoga senantiase dlm lindunagNya
u're apple pie of our fmly =)

Bukak pose ::

2011-06-07T10:44:00.005+08:00

alhmdllh...
dh slmt berbuka pose pun..
menu berbuka smlm :
udg goreng kunyit + ayam masak lemak cilipadi + bubur pulut hitam + air sarsi =)
at first, mmg dh xlrt giler nk teruskan pose. pnas yg amat sgt, so gghkan jugak tuk habiskan since just another 3-4 hours to bukak pose..
so as reward, makan byak2 =)
then terus pengsan =)

udg goreng kunyit yg biase2 jer..
time nk goreng udg ni, cm nk pgsnm sbb dh xlrt giler..
siap stop kejep pg baring then sambung balik..
dasyat =)
tu yg xde long bean n tomato lam udg goreng kunyit tu

masak lemak cilipadi was my first menu i'd cooked for my married life
menu ni la i'd for my family, inlaw and tok kedah and my panadols (nely + hub + lida + mek rini + adeq)
mmg nostalgia abis la menu ni =)
huhuhhu =)
p/s: my family n bro in law siap tmbh2 nasi 2, 3 kali..
fuyooooo sedap giler.. (tp awas, nti ade jelezs plak ^_^)

bubur pulut itam...
my first try =)
wow !!! jadi..bubur ni cm mummy yg masak.
yummuuuyyyyy =)

overall, first day fasting in Rejab was awesome !!!!!!!!
chaiyok2 another 14th day to go =)

Ya allah, berkatila kami untuk menjalani ibadahmu di bulan rejab n syaaban.
panjangkanlah umur kami sehingga ramadahan
moga ibadah kami mendapat tempat di sisi Mu.
ameennnnn

is thinking for.....

2011-06-06T13:25:00.002+08:00

is thinking for food for bukak pose...
even clock just showing 0125 pm
will bukak pose with my gemuks today and till wednesday =)

ok2 will cook pengat pisang n bubur pulut hitam
for main dish, maybe nasi kukus ayam dara madu

still have another 14th day to go
=)
=)
=)

:: Polka :

2011-06-06T12:14:00.005+08:00

polka beracun
try buat for the first time, tp hampe,,
lgsung xjadi..
then try la..
so end up order
then hasil 'orderlan' adalah seperti di bawah =)
sukeeeeeeeeee
cantikkkkkkkk
so colorfulllllllllll

actually,
the polka is for my sis
for majlis tahlil and kesyukuran

colorful polka..
colorfull of life
so what why asking more???
He gave tooooo many for u.
yesss..dfntly, too many.
alhmdllh =)
ya allah, tq for all the colorful life of mine
alhmdllh =)

just kiddo

2011-05-31T16:28:00.004+08:00

this is my little oleng
aliff rayyan

currently asyik sebut2 nippel ..
when we ask him back, wht is nipple?
he just geleng2..
when i do pillow talk with him, show me where is it, die pun agkt baju die..
tergelek2 bile ingt balik
wht to say
ayyan2,,

" the bad thing happen when sent small kids to school
with too western"
somehow, it is one of advntge but its too small to talk about it
whtever, just took and accpt it in positive manner =)
oleng oh oleng
moga2 jd anak soleh n bijak nti tau =)

:: another Friday's rambling ::

2011-05-27T13:30:00.004+08:00

counting the day, minutes and seconds for mr cloret...
dear, please home cepat2..
i do miss u..
lots of gossips wanna tell u
and most important is i wanna u accpny me for shopping + moviee
as promised this is our time
before a tons of work comings
::
i missed the class hour with two best ever people
wanna have cooking n bakery claa
trademark "husna, ko kena pndai msk, bru la sddiq tu syg ko, stkt mkn kt kedai jer, baik xpyh kwen"
iyo la tu kak,
pndai la sgt,,masak aym kicap pun 2 kali try then bg tong sampah jer, pandai la sgt !!!!!!
huhuhuhu nway, qillh n kak gyah, tqvm for all the hand given =)

::
a couple of month in future
a good frends of mine will leave me
sobseksobseksobseksobseksobsek
of course im happy even u'll leave me alone here
will pray the best for you
sobseksosbseksobseksek=(
::

Dear Al-mighty,,
i miss my pretty anis
i dont know what happen to us actually
so suddent be quite for each other
Ya Allah, You knows how much i miss her rite..
do give us the strenght to face all the thing happen
im really sorry if im hurt you n doing wrong to u
i love n miss u my dear..
Ya Allah,
she is one of my importnt person in my life.
i need her in my up and down..
ya allah, do give her back in mine please

::Friday's rambling ::

2011-05-20T09:09:00.004+08:00

Just a Friday's Rambling ::Post exam quartet dating with aqillah + kak gayah::

:: Al-Waqia ::

2011-04-27T13:24:00.002+08:00

إِذَا وَقَعَتِ ٱلۡوَاقِعَةُ (١) لَيۡسَ لِوَقۡعَتِہَا كَاذِبَةٌ (٢) خَافِضَةٌ۬ رَّافِعَةٌ (٣) إِذَا رُجَّتِ ٱلۡأَرۡضُ رَجًّ۬ا (٤) وَبُسَّتِ ٱلۡجِبَالُ بَسًّ۬ا (٥) فَكَانَتۡ هَبَآءً۬ مُّنۢبَثًّ۬ا (٦) وَكُنتُمۡ أَزۡوَٲجً۬ا ثَلَـٰثَةً۬ (٧) فَأَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلۡمَيۡمَنَةِ مَآ أَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلۡمَيۡمَنَةِ (٨) وَأَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلۡمَشۡـَٔمَةِ مَآ أَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلۡمَشۡـَٔمَةِ (٩) وَٱلسَّـٰبِقُونَ ٱلسَّـٰبِقُونَ (١٠) أُوْلَـٰٓٮِٕكَ ٱلۡمُقَرَّبُونَ (١١) فِى جَنَّـٰتِ ٱلنَّعِيمِ (١٢) ثُلَّةٌ۬ مِّنَ ٱلۡأَوَّلِينَ (١٣) وَقَلِيلٌ۬ مِّنَ ٱلۡأَخِرِينَ (١٤) عَلَىٰ سُرُرٍ۬ مَّوۡضُونَةٍ۬ (١٥) مُّتَّكِـِٔينَ عَلَيۡہَا مُتَقَـٰبِلِينَ (١٦) يَطُوفُ عَلَيۡہِمۡ وِلۡدَٲنٌ۬ مُّخَلَّدُونَ (١٧) بِأَكۡوَابٍ۬ وَأَبَارِيقَ وَكَأۡسٍ۬ مِّن مَّعِينٍ۬ (١٨) لَّا يُصَدَّعُونَ عَنۡہَا وَلَا يُنزِفُونَ (١٩) وَفَـٰكِهَةٍ۬ مِّمَّا يَتَخَيَّرُونَ (٢٠) وَلَحۡمِ طَيۡرٍ۬ مِّمَّا يَشۡتَہُونَ (٢١) وَحُورٌ عِينٌ۬ (٢٢) كَأَمۡثَـٰلِ ٱللُّؤۡلُوِٕ ٱلۡمَكۡنُونِ (٢٣) جَزَآءَۢ بِمَا كَانُواْ يَعۡمَلُونَ (٢٤) لَا يَسۡمَعُونَ فِيہَا لَغۡوً۬ا وَلَا تَأۡثِيمًا (٢٥) إِلَّا قِيلاً۬ سَلَـٰمً۬ا سَلَـٰمً۬ا (٢٦) وَأَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلۡيَمِينِ مَآ أَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلۡيَمِينِ (٢٧) فِى سِدۡرٍ۬ مَّخۡضُودٍ۬ (٢٨) وَطَلۡحٍ۬ مَّنضُودٍ۬ (٢٩) وَظِلٍّ۬ مَّمۡدُودٍ۬ (٣٠) وَمَآءٍ۬ مَّسۡكُوبٍ۬ (٣١) وَفَـٰكِهَةٍ۬ كَثِيرَةٍ۬ (٣٢) لَّا مَقۡطُوعَةٍ۬ وَلَا مَمۡنُوعَةٍ۬ (٣٣) وَفُرُشٍ۬ مَّرۡفُوعَةٍ (٣٤) إِنَّآ أَنشَأۡنَـٰهُنَّ إِنشَآءً۬ (٣٥) فَجَعَلۡنَـٰهُنَّ أَبۡكَارًا (٣٦) عُرُبًا أَتۡرَابً۬ا (٣٧) لِّأَصۡحَـٰبِ ٱلۡيَمِينِ (٣٨) ثُلَّةٌ۬ مِّنَ ٱلۡأَوَّلِينَ (٣٩) وَثُلَّةٌ۬ مِّنَ ٱلۡأَخِرِينَ (٤٠) وَأَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلشِّمَالِ مَآ أَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلشِّمَالِ (٤١) فِى سَمُومٍ۬ وَحَمِيمٍ۬ (٤٢) وَظِلٍّ۬ مِّن يَحۡمُومٍ۬ (٤٣) لَّا بَارِدٍ۬ وَلَا كَرِيمٍ (٤٤) إِنَّہُمۡ كَانُواْ قَبۡلَ ذَٲلِكَ مُتۡرَفِينَ (٤٥) وَكَانُواْ يُصِرُّونَ عَلَى ٱلۡحِنثِ ٱلۡعَظِيمِ (٤٦) وَكَانُواْ يَقُولُونَ أَٮِٕذَا مِتۡنَا وَكُنَّا تُرَابً۬ا وَعِظَـٰمًا أَءِنَّا لَمَبۡعُوثُونَ (٤٧) أَوَءَابَآؤُنَا ٱلۡأَوَّلُونَ (٤٨) قُلۡ إِنَّ ٱلۡأَوَّلِينَ وَٱلۡأَخِرِينَ (٤٩) لَمَجۡمُوعُونَ إِلَىٰ مِيقَـٰتِ يَوۡمٍ۬ مَّعۡلُومٍ۬ (٥٠) ثُمَّ إِنَّكُمۡ أَيُّہَا ٱلضَّآلُّونَ ٱلۡمُكَذِّبُونَ (٥١) لَأَكِلُونَ مِن شَجَرٍ۬ مِّن زَقُّومٍ۬ (٥٢) فَمَالِـُٔونَ مِنۡہَا ٱلۡبُطُونَ (٥٣) فَشَـٰرِبُونَ عَلَيۡهِ مِنَ ٱلۡحَمِيمِ (٥٤) فَشَـٰرِبُونَ شُرۡبَ ٱلۡهِيمِ (٥٥) هَـٰذَا نُزُلُهُمۡ يَوۡمَ ٱلدِّينِ (٥٦) نَحۡنُ خَلَقۡنَـٰكُمۡ فَلَوۡلَا تُصَدِّقُونَ (٥٧) أَفَرَءَيۡتُم مَّا تُمۡنُونَ (٥٨) ءَأَنتُمۡ تَخۡلُقُونَهُ ۥۤ أَمۡ نَحۡنُ ٱلۡخَـٰلِقُونَ (٥٩) نَحۡنُ قَدَّرۡنَا بَيۡنَكُمُ ٱلۡمَوۡتَ وَمَا نَحۡنُ بِمَسۡبُوقِينَ (٦٠) عَلَىٰٓ أَن نُّبَدِّلَ أَمۡثَـٰلَكُمۡ وَنُنشِئَكُمۡ فِى مَا لَا تَعۡلَمُونَ (٦١) وَلَقَدۡ عَلِمۡتُمُ ٱلنَّشۡأَةَ ٱلۡأُولَىٰ فَلَوۡلَا تَذَكَّرُونَ (٦٢) أَفَرَءَيۡتُم مَّا تَحۡرُثُونَ (٦٣) ءَأَنتُمۡ تَزۡرَعُونَهُ ۥۤ أَمۡ نَحۡنُ ٱلزَّٲرِعُونَ (٦٤) لَوۡ نَشَآءُ لَجَعَلۡنَـٰهُ حُطَـٰمً۬ا فَظَلۡتُمۡ تَفَكَّهُونَ (٦٥) إِنَّا لَمُغۡرَمُونَ (٦٦) بَلۡ نَحۡنُ مَحۡرُومُونَ (٦٧) أَفَرَءَيۡتُمُ ٱلۡمَآءَ ٱلَّذِى تَشۡرَبُونَ (٦٨) ءَأَنتُمۡ أَنزَلۡتُمُوهُ مِنَ ٱلۡمُزۡنِ أَمۡ نَحۡنُ ٱلۡمُنزِلُونَ (٦٩) لَوۡ نَشَآءُ جَعَلۡنَـٰهُ أُجَاجً۬ا فَلَوۡلَا تَشۡكُرُونَ (٧٠) أَفَرَءَيۡتُمُ ٱلنَّارَ ٱلَّتِى تُورُونَ (٧١) ءَأَنتُمۡ أَنشَأۡتُمۡ شَجَرَتَہَآ أَمۡ نَحۡنُ ٱلۡمُنشِـُٔونَ (٧٢) نَحۡنُ جَعَلۡنَـٰهَا تَذۡكِرَةً۬ وَمَتَـٰعً۬ا لِّلۡمُقۡوِينَ (٧٣) فَسَبِّحۡ بِٱسۡمِ رَبِّكَ ٱلۡعَظِيمِ (٧٤) ۞ فَلَآ أُقۡسِمُ بِمَوَٲقِعِ ٱلنُّجُومِ (٧٥) وَإِنَّهُ ۥ لَقَسَمٌ۬ لَّوۡ تَعۡلَمُونَ عَظِيمٌ (٧٦) إِنَّهُ ۥ لَقُرۡءَانٌ۬ كَرِيمٌ۬ (٧٧) فِى كِتَـٰبٍ۬ مَّكۡنُونٍ۬ (٧٨) لَّا يَمَسُّهُ ۥۤ إِلَّا ٱلۡمُطَهَّرُونَ (٧٩) تَنزِيلٌ۬ مِّن رَّبِّ ٱلۡعَـٰلَمِينَ (٨٠) أَفَبِہَـٰذَا ٱلۡحَدِيثِ أَنتُم مُّدۡهِنُونَ (٨١) وَتَجۡعَلُونَ رِزۡقَكُمۡ أَنَّكُمۡ تُكَذِّبُونَ (٨٢) فَلَوۡلَآ إِذَا بَلَغَتِ ٱلۡحُلۡقُومَ (٨٣) وَأَنتُمۡ حِينَٮِٕذٍ۬ تَنظُرُونَ (٨٤) وَنَحۡنُ أَقۡرَبُ إِلَيۡهِ مِنكُمۡ وَلَـٰكِن لَّا تُبۡصِرُونَ (٨٥) فَلَوۡلَآ إِن كُنتُمۡ غَيۡرَ مَدِينِينَ (٨٦) تَرۡجِعُونَہَآ إِن كُنتُمۡ صَـٰدِقِينَ (٨٧) فَأَمَّآ إِن كَانَ مِنَ ٱلۡمُقَرَّبِينَ (٨٨) فَرَوۡحٌ۬ وَرَيۡحَانٌ۬ وَجَنَّتُ نَعِيمٍ۬ (٨٩) وَأَمَّآ إِن كَانَ مِنۡ أَصۡحَـٰبِ ٱلۡيَمِينِ (٩٠) فَسَلَـٰمٌ۬ لَّكَ مِنۡ أَصۡحَـٰبِ ٱلۡيَمِينِ (٩١) وَأَمَّآ إِن كَانَ مِنَ ٱلۡمُكَذِّبِينَ ٱلضَّآلِّينَ (٩٢) فَنُزُلٌ۬ مِّنۡ حَمِيمٍ۬ (٩٣) وَتَصۡلِيَةُ جَحِيمٍ (٩٤) إِنَّ هَـٰذَا لَهُوَ حَقُّ ٱلۡيَقِينِ (٩٥) فَسَبِّحۡ بِٱسۡمِ رَبِّكَ ٱلۡعَظِيمِ (٩٦)

::: i hate kamu222:::

2011-03-25T18:16:00.003+08:00

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i hate u
the reasons:
1) kamu2 penipu besar
2)cakap xsuper bikin
3)kwan selame2 nyer konon,,piiiirahhhhhh
4)sume lakonan semate2..
5)berjanggut, berserban, berkopiah, bertudung litup tapi sume tu just 'O'
6) kwn sampai mati kononnnn, 'gth'
7)aku pun xingin hadiah dari kamu2....lebih dari tu aku mampu bli, aku xheren la!!!! fyi GAJI aku lebh banyak dri gaji KAMU2222...
8)conlusion: mmg aku xmyesal xkwn ngn kamu222 + lagi xmyesal kalu korang xpenh wujud lam frenship world aku pun
can't i undo it or delete it from
semoga kamu2 dlm keadaan sjhtera
adios
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:::im in emo mood :::

2011-03-24T17:33:00.003+08:00

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thursday yg sedikit + sgt emotional =(
tetibe rase sdih yg tak bertempat
tetibe rase life is unfair
but still clueless for what reason
just text"ing" with my little brother
maybe i miss him
i just want the best for him and his future
im crying =(
but im still crying for no reason=(
how bad this PMS feeling

Dear Al-mighty
do forgive me whatever i'd wrong
do blessed us with your Ar-rahman, Ar-rahim, Ar-razzak
only u're the One who desserve to ask
ameen
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::: Arghhhhhh, nk ponteng la :( :::

2011-03-15T15:55:00.012+08:00

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A bundle of works to do
due date of submission is just around the corner, plus minus 28 days to go
but im still ina lower gear n speed lgii :(
tiring, boring =(
arini ade clss clinical phrm,
tp rse cm nk ponteng,seriussss giler2 malasssss
huwaaaaaaaaaaa
huwaaaaaaaa
kwn2, leh tolong sy x? tolong cover sy tau...

looking for peaceful place for chilling & rilexs
mr cloret, we should go somewhere =)

P/s: dear al-mighty,,, why i am so lazy??? do give me strength to face all this, do guide me,, please , please and please blessed in whtevr im doing,
ameeen !!!!

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after eye's check up, tetibe craving for dessert
so drop by at tutty fruity
and the results is:

mnggiurkan?
perfect match for fruit's topping
choc + mango + red velvet frozen yogourt

nyum222
leh dtg lagi bak kata mr cloret

sharing is not just caring okeyyy

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qnchy ni buat tuk bfast
instead of using bayam, we put brocolli, carrot n tomato as their main ingredient
sbnrnyer xsuke syur-sayuran berdaun =)
healthy menu (",)

the singleto plate (",)

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purple cabbage yg indah khabar dari rupe
buat penat jer
at the end , jadi menu dustbin jer

:::Wednesday :::

2011-03-09T09:03:00.003+08:00

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"Gratitude is when memory is stored in the heart and not in the mind."

- Lionel Hampton-

080311
Happy women days everyone (",)
spcially dedicated to mummy, ummi, sisters & in laws
"Tangan yg menghayun buaian mampu menggoncang dunia"

:: Jangan buat keje last minit, myusahkan org jer ::

2011-03-07T00:25:00.005+08:00

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"It's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it"
-Lena Horne-

i hate last minute person =(
honeslty, U'd spoiled our vocations

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Dear Al-mighty,,,
thank you very much for all You'd gave me
strength, happines, marriage, family, frenz, studies
nothing much could describe the Your fruitfull's things
only alhamdulillah, alhamdullillah, alhmdulillah
Insyaallah, if everything smooth as plan,
we'll be in YOUR HOME
insyaallah

1) berjaya masak tuk family makan, menu cnfident "aym msk lemak cilipadi"
me: sedap x?
Mr cloret: boleh la?
me: cakap la betul2, sedap ke x?
mr cloret: boleh, bukannye xsedsap lgsung, boleh la makan? kalu sedap dh stnding chef wan la..
me: yer ker. jht la die ni, xcover2 lgsung, ala sedih la.
mr cloret: nk sedih apenyer nyer, sedap la, ummi xcomplain tu ok la..first try ok la tu
me: kpi i naik x bulan ni? =)
mr cloret: =)

counting the day to NZ
saving for shopping
and mr cloret birthday celebration in NZ

:: Friday thought :::

2011-03-04T13:57:00.006+08:00

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Life can only be understood backwards
but it must be lived forward
"Soren kierkegaard"

Remembering him does not make me a pathetic.
It's inevitable.
His reminiscences are everywhere.
I treasure each memory and remind me that I once had a great person
AL-Fatihah
U're always in my loving rememberance

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friday note:
search the recipe to cook for Mr cloret
maybe roasted lemonade chicken with baked potato
or mybe grill lamb served with potato n salad
or maybe sambal udang with masak lemak cili api ayam
or maybe balognese spgeti
or maybe homed made pizza
or maybe prata with chicken
or ayam rendang n nasi impit
or makan kat luar jer..
huhuhuhhu
but i'll try my best to cook
since die akan makan sampai licin periuk sambil senyum sampai ke telinga (~_~;)

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2011-03-01T16:07:00.000+08:00

Just try ;)
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::: sedetik lebih :::

2011-03-01T13:21:00.002+08:00

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"Setiap nafas yang dihembus, Setiap degupan jantung, Aku selalu memikirkanmu, Dalam sedar dibuai angan, Dalam tidur dan khayalan, Aku selalu memikirkanmu, Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang, Barulah terasa ku bernyawa, Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu, Kerana kau beri erti hidup, Ku kan terus mencinta, sedetik lebih, selepas selamanya, Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan, Ku bersyukur adanya kamu, Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia,Asal masih adanya kamu"

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Quote of the Day

2011-02-24T17:33:00.005+08:00

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"A tree is known by its fruit; a man by his deeds. A good deed is never lost; he who sows courtesy reaps friendship, and he who plants kindness gathers love."

- St. Basil-

Today is my blurr wednesday :(

2011-02-23T09:42:00.003+08:00

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just having kuew tiaw goreng

off to class at 10 am

will ahve a lucnh at 1 pm (2 kpng roti + scrmble eggs + apple)

0ff to class at 5 pm
(slaid prsnttion lum touch lgi, need to moderate more + added something for improvement)
ya Allah, please blessed us n guide us to journey of life
only YOU we deserved to ask
ameennn

will have lunch
(with sddiq of course + meet my panadolianz)

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::: When he homed :::

2011-02-19T19:54:00.011+08:00

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when he was homed
i was a master chef
i cooked (",)
he have to eat a lot while, i have and must have a lesser food and low calories
coz he have to gain weight and i have + must to loss weight
huhuhuu
can u see the big differences of ous
one is have to gain weight a.k.a kena gemuk
and i have to loss weight a.k.a kurus

nota kaki: bile la nk kurus ni, bosan dh gemuk ni
sume baju n jeans dh xmuat ;(

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the menus :
nasi putih basmathi,
tempe goreng,
steamed vege
ayam masak merah

me and him
mine was one scope of rice
(1/3 of his portion)

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::once upon a time ::

2011-02-18T15:34:00.002+08:00

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blurry friday....

decided to ponteng all the classes today yahooooooooooooooo
ampun byk2 kwn2,
sile amekkan any artcle tuk kami suami isteri tau

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motif letak gambo sbb teringat ngn little cute aqeef
kecik2 dh ade diary
siap tulis xksi umi n papa die bace
aqeef..u're such a cute little boy dear (",)

A big kilo of Malasssss

2011-02-10T10:30:00.006+08:00

currently im a swing mood...mood yg nth ape2
malas yg teramat , health prob =(
mybe in e few day
maybe in next full moon
mood ni akan datang balik =(
so, in the mean time, enjoy the pic of our weekend meal (",)

drum roll pleaseeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have a gud news to shre with u..
siddiq just received his asssmnt results
alhmdllh...he got 83.5 / 100
good job dear =)
nti kite celebrate ur good news

menu diet tuk i ,
tp org lain yg dh kurus n mmg kurus pun trpkse ikut jugak
its ok coz its healthy menu.

nasi goreng vege olive oil + telur mata lembu + grilled tomato

p/s : self satisfaction tergndala skjp sbb ade health prob =(

haiiii,, i am muhammad akil zarif !!!!!!!

2011-02-09T16:30:00.007+08:00

heyyyy!!!!!!!!!!
i am muhammad akil zarif !!!!!!!
i just arrive here from my mommy's tummy (",)

chah dearies
good luck for new task
we proud having you as good buddy
nti kmek org pos 'welcoming gift' to akil zarif

Ade aku kesah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-02-08T08:30:00.004+08:00

;;
ade aku kesah ko..
sorry!!!!!!!!!!
its too late..

dear madam
ms husna hamid

pardon me for any incnvnience made by me
i am really sorry for the thing make uncomfortable with me
i am adjusting to the new work environmnet.
i could be my co-operative with you regarding our department work

sincerely
XXXXXXXXXX

honestly, i hate people like u
please learn how to appcreciate people around you
dont simply take for granted for existance of person + belonging
seriously i hate poeple like uuuuu
but dont you worry
i'll co-operate profesionally

durian +- 30

2011-02-07T16:44:00.011+08:00

:
durian punyer citer (",)

Craving for durian..at last,,we found it. since im not the durian lovers, so nothing much i knew about it, same goest to siddiq (',),,so durian tu rm+- 20 sekilo, so durian yg ktrg makan tu lbh kurang sekilo stgh, total is rm+-30...mak oiii,,mhl gk erk durian kt sini..ingtkan kt london jer mahal...

me: i nmpk ade org jual durian kt jln sblh tu..jom mkn durian nk???
him: u teringin ker? i boleh jer
me: nak!!!! so, stopkan kete n terus ke gerai durian

him:u nk mkn yg cmne? ni ade byk jenis, D24, msg king,durian kg or yg mane?
me: i xtau la, tp i nk yg isi nyer kuning cntik n xpahit
him: ok (ask the pnjual durian n he sggetsed the gred a durian D24)

him: sdp x?
me:ntah,,xtau tau, tp ok la..xpahit n isi kuning
this is my first time i ate durian tuk sebiji half

akibat nyer, penangan durian tu,im sleepless for the whole night... i tell him, i xdpt tdo la,,jumla kite bgn buat assignmnt??? ha?giler ke aper nk buat assgnmnt time2 cmni? huhuhuuhhu i xdpt tdo la..serius xdpt tdo...

durian isinyer kuning...
best!!!!

si oleng yg xsedar dirinye masih kecik...
makan ice cream cm budak tua.
oleng, if 'ayah' still with me, dfntly he'll dfntly tell u we're alike

"" with a loving rememberance""
""AL-FATIHAH""

:: Self Satisfaction day 7 ::

2011-02-02T09:42:00.004+08:00

:: Self Satisfaction day 7 ::
(1 feb 2011)

Bfast : 2 tablespoon honey + plain water + apples + bananas +scrmble eggs + bread
lunch : nasi ayam + green salad
dinner : rice + ikan sambal + ulam2
(lunch n dinner meals was prepared by my sis)

::Bfast ::

:: have an evening outing with oleng n his mummy for kenduri's groceries ::
oleng was super2 buat perangai

:: Self Satisfaction day 6 ::

2011-02-01T09:17:00.003+08:00

:: Self Satisfaction day 6 ::
(31th jan 2011)

Bfast : 2 tablespoon honey + plain water + apples
lunch : mee goreng with sambal sotong + fruits salad
dinner : chicken porridge + anchovy + chopped grilled tomatoes

:(
yesterday was the tired + stress day...
in hate all the new rules at skool..
xpyh nk stresskan diri sndiri for the those stupid things...
take as lesson to undertsnd wht is life all about
Coz He has a great agenda for u..
need to recharge myselfl

p/s: to frenz..sorry to worry u..
its a small prob..
dont you worried,,i'll ok later on will get used to all the life all about

:: Self Satisfaction day 2 ::

2011-01-31T16:29:00.004+08:00

:: Self Satisfaction day 2 ::
(27th jan 2011)

Bfast: 2 tablespoon honey + plain water + 2 slices white bread
Lunch : half bowl soup of rice + hati ayam goreng + udang sambal + grilled vege
lunch : apples salad

its made by me..sorry..just to show off with u,,esp my famly
moral of the story for this pic is : i can cook =)

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:: Self Satisfaction day 3 ::
(28th jan 2011)

Bfast: 2 tablespoon honey + plain water + slices white bread + banana in syrap
Lunch : half bowl soup of rice + grilled chicken + mixed vege with tauhu
lunch : fruits salad + glass of low fat milk

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*** happy 31 years old. may ALLAH bless u here after **
**oleng with 2 gorgon**
**g jejalan x ajak..tuhan byr cash lagi kt korang hahahhaa =)
xle main sbb oleng xcukup ktnggian or sbb ujan =)
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:: Self Satisfaction day 4 ::
(29th jan 2011)

Bfast: 2 tablespoon honey + plain water + nasi goreng
Lunch : nasi kenduri at frenz wedding ## salma##
**salma dearies ,cngrtltion for two of u...
selamat korban dan mngorban =)**
lunch : sate

***diet mmg hncusss***

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:: Self Satisfaction day 5 ::
(30th jan 2011)

Bfast: 2 half boiled egg + nasi lemak 50 sen + cucur udang + baked bean + chicken sausage +salad (giler byk,,please check the calori intake =)
Lunch : just have keropok ikan together + choclatewith mineral water
lunch : bihun celup + air suam
*** gossipping with thye gals***
having fun with them =)

:: Self Satisfaction day 1 ::

2011-01-26T10:01:00.006+08:00

:::
This is first day of my "self satistation"...
hopefully it will last until i get back my figure + forever....
i have to loose atleast 12 kilogram (boleh ker????), chaiyok2..
i have to stop give an excusese...
im nak slim + i nak sihat..
xnk sakit2 lutut and kaki lagi due to overweight..
so i have to decide the best for myselft (",)
insyaallah, just pray for me everyone :)
:::

##Day 1##
sauna :after subuh prayer n quran recitation
breakfast :Just had an red apple+ glass of plain water added with lemon juice and 2 table spoon of honey
lunch : plain rice with grilled salmon + green salad [this is made by me :),tapau n bawak g skol, lupe nk snap pic]
dinner : fruit salads + low fat milk

::the apples::
i weeks stocks for breakfast

p/s: hubb, family and frenz: do give me 180% support tau, i nk kurus + cntik + shat + nak pakai balik jeans2 dulu (",)

::: Rojak Entry :::

2011-01-25T08:53:00.017+08:00

Time flies sooooo fast...
arini dh 25th jan...arini bersmngt sket nk ke skool,sbb lpas subuh pryer n quran recitation, dengan jayenyer tidak menidurkan diri ....
well done, good job !!! i have to congratulate myself for this bahavior (",)...
then trus ke dpur
msukkan baki nasi goreng semalam dalam microwave
and buat salads and scrmble eggs moyo..
siddiq, anda tidak percaye bukan????
i pun xpercaye jgaks..
fuhhhh...memang well behave la pgi selase yg murni ini (",)
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:: ni la hasilnye::
nasi goreng + scrmble eggs's mayo + salads
untuk di bawe ke skloh
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this cakes bought by siddiq (from "US",,pandai2 la defined who is 'US" belongs to, hehehehehss) to lida dearies for her 28th years old birthday
,
,
two words of that days..
sila save lam vocab book masing2 yer

" daun wonderpet = salad"
"kuah kek = yogurt + cream chesse yg ade kt atas kek"

,
,

::15 jan 2010::
my 28 years old day..
thnk you mummy for this i am now..
thnk you for giving me such opprtunity all i have...
kasih ibu membawa ke syurga ameen...
i love you mummy
'
'
the journey 'ila firdaus with love' went smoothly as planned..
Ya allah, please do accept all our ibadah..
lighten us with all your blessed..
guide us to be best couple as permitted by you here and Jannah
ameennn !!!!!!!!

'
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::: birthday celebration for two of us :::
a & w restoren at 12 midnight
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and frenz treats at pizza hut

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ila firdaus with love

2011-01-06T17:25:00.000+08:00

Ya allah,permudahkan urusan kami,berkati la pgorbanan kami .semoga segala yg kami lakukan adalah semata2 untuk MU,ya allah permudahkan urusan kami menuju MU yaallah,,,ameen ya rabbil alamin !!!

The fouth...

2011-01-04T08:56:00.010+08:00

lets go for Two 'O' One One with the most sweetest smiles and biggest steps (",)

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah...
Allah has given me the chance to live until now, hopefully I will be able to see the sun of 2011 with the great achievement, insyaallah. i'm thankful for so many wonderful things that I had and couldn't have in 2010.. alhamdulillah.. alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah, hopefully, 2011 will be a wonderful year too, ameen, ameen, ameen ya rabbal alameen (",)

(",)
(",)

It is ordinary to start a new year with a resolution. Will start my new year with a conclusion instead. At the end of this decade, I finally come to a conclusion that lifetime is too short and precious to be wasted with hatred, anger and meaningless matter. And the biggest lesson: 1) Love Allah - every minute you breath, 2) Patience is the key of everything , 3) Forgiveness heals, and 4) Silence is the best policy - when you have nothing good to share.

(",)
(",)

On top of everything, there's nothing to compare; when HE tested you and then with HIS guidance you find your way... not out, but towards 'knowing' HIM.
All praises to HIM.
Subhanallah...

had great outing with this budak togethers with siddiqs + kakak for new year celebration

(",)
(",)

p/s :2011 resolution;
1)be a good people to everyone ; Allah, siddiq, mummy,abah, granny, graddy, kakak,bro arif, baby, apihdz, teh, yen, in laws family, everyone i have
2)travel to amazing places
3) visits and have a short lifes in makkah
4)cheerish everyone i have
5)complete my study

Part of My Hutang !!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-28T16:54:00.007+08:00

as promisess..
families and friendsssssss.....

#mummy, abah, granny, graddy,ummi, ayah, kakak, bro arif, baby, apihdz, teh, yenn,eiwwa, umai, munzir, muhsina, faheem, farhana, nuha# **ieda wanda, nely, mrdomely jea, ieda anastasia,adik, rienie syarini, fiqah**

thk you for being my painkiller + put the blue dot on me...u're my strength,my everything..will love you till the end of my day, inshaallah...

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"Live in the moment,
and make it so beautiful.
that it will be worth remembering"
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lets the piccs talks (",)

p/s : i dh byr hutang gmbo kwen ni..so my dearies n besties...
have a look on it..
piccs for another 3 events will upload once im free to do it..

::love::

2010-10-12T16:11:00.000+08:00

“Age does not protect you from love.

But love, to some extent, protects you from age.”

and

“I have learned not to worry about love

but to honor its coming with all my heart.”

^blossom^

2010-09-29T09:02:00.005+08:00

Blair cried during Dorota's wedding. She broke off with tears when Cyrus announce the happy couple whom happen to be Blair and Chuck, to walk the aisle and accompany the bride and bridegroom as a part of the traditional Russian wedding. Blair said that she and Chuck was not a happy couple. They should not bring bad luck to Dorota and Vanya. Blair hated the person she has become when she love Chuck -- too much. She hated it.

Watching Blair crying like that, letting Chuck go... stepping away from her life... admitting that the one love she wanted and fight for was not a happy story... it broke my heart. Blair is mean. But she's just another girl.

"I don't need you to be a happy couple. I just need you to be happy (Dorota)"

Everybody has the right to be happy.
to choose a path that makes them happy.
to give second chance, many time.
to forgive.
to forget.
to move on.
to stay and to longed.
to believe lies.
to tell lies.
to be hurt.
to hurt.
to hate and only hate.
to love and love still.
to live well
to be a better person.

(qist..i curi u)
(i suke sgt tgk u syum..i i nk tgk u senyum + gelak)
no tears anymore dear...

p/s : i'd wrote just for my dearest qist..i love the way she'd move on..the way she taugh me how to stand, how to walk again, how to smile, i love her the way she ask to be strong,,the way she ask me to stop crying..i'd love her for being for me as i need 'him' for me..Qist dearie..i just want u to be happy as we still have chnce to do that..Allah did 'met us' through the love of hardness...Qist,do take care dear...

i hurt him....

2010-07-20T11:09:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah..,
i just did a super stupid thing again...
Ya allah,,please blessed me with your Mercy...
i dont want to "hurt" him anymore..
ya allah..please guide me ya allah...

mercy from HIM

2010-06-09T16:37:00.005+08:00

Alhmdullih....
Everything went well as planned....
Janji Allah benar, just leave it everything to HIM..
Apa yang berlaku dah pun berlaku. Tidak ada istilah,tiada kate yg terbaik untuk diungkapkan.. anggaplah semua ini tidak pernah berlaku. Hidup dalam reality memang menyakitkan. But do we have other choice? Defenaetly....We have to move on. Let it go...just concentrate ...the beginning of life is not important..the important is the ending ...how the life end...where the journey that return to The Al-mighty...Promises were just words. Memories were just acts captured in time. We are only human, we can't expect everything to turn out as we believe it can be. This is really happening, not scenes written in novels or dramas. Wounds required time to heal. Yes,,time will heal everything.. but, Walaupun luka dah sembuh, parut mungkin akan kelihatan, black scars, white scars or even like reddish scars..in medical practice when a body brought in with too severe injury, the doctors would stop all medication and leave the body to heal herself...see,the prove of time is the best medication for all disease.. Let it go. Allah hanya ingin menduga kita..hanya ingin berbicara sahaja...
sbb allah sayang kite...

Fatimah Az-Zahra, 'Aishah, Khadijah, Asiyah, Sumaiyyah, Rabiatul Adawiyah, Maryam, Atiqah... Wanita-wanita terpuji dalam Islam tersebut, tak ada yang menangis kerana hal dunia. Jauh sekali menangis kerana lelaki. Padahal hidup wanita-wanita ini jauh lebih mencabar jika dibandingkan dengan hidup aku. Mereka menangis, tapi bukan kerana hal dunia.
so,just let it go...Ya Allah..please leave your mercy on me,,,
i promise, i will be a better person from now on...
insyaallah...

finally end?

2010-05-25T11:15:00.002+08:00

I finally reach the end of the runway. When I took the first step, the runway seems like a long journey. It even terrified me. But now, this is it... This is my final moment on this runway.

I stopped and let the seconds caresses me. I let the melody of Pachelbel's Canon to dance around me. I closed my eyes and said softly: this is the melody I heard when I fell in love, and now she's going to play her melody and witness my final walk.

A good runway model could walk in any dress and in any high heels, on any runway. I might have stumbled once or twice. But I'll learn and I'll be better. Apart from that, I know I did my walk beyond every expectation. I did it.

I opened my eyes and see faces I love. The halo in their eyes set my soul free. I know no matter which row they are, they'll always be there for me. Their love radiates from them and warmth the air. It tells me that I already have the world.

Flower petals fall from above. They landed on my clothes and on my open palms. These petals, they were like love that touches me. Though not a bouquet, they were still flowers. One day, InsyaAllah, I'll receive my own bouquet.
Ameennnn....

second chnce

2010-05-05T17:26:00.000+08:00

life is too short to wake up with regrets.
So love the people who treats u rite forget about the ones that who dont.
Believes that everything happen for a reason.
If u get a 2nd chance, grab it with both hands.
If its changes ur life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it

.: tulang unta's mirror :.

2010-04-27T16:48:00.005+08:00

hati berbunga2...of course happy..
for long time, both of us busy with our own life n responsibility..but, today, in the wise n nice afternoon, we had a long chit chatting...Of course, both of us busy....
giler2 busy..full of task need us to give full of attntion and cmtmnts...
a lot of gossiping n story we issued it out...
looks like we miss each others,hehhehe...
hati makin berbunga2...
the JUNE is just around the corner..
another one n half month to go...
perhaps...everything will smoothly as plan
draco, i cant wait ...
i want more n more present from you..
especially the 'tulang unta's mirror'
of course i want it..i want everybody look my 'beauty face' as u claim...
according to him...kalau anak dara guna tulang unta's mirror, die akan lagi nmpak cntik..so kalu dh cntik n cute, lagila cntik n cute,,,bertmbh2 lagi..ehehhe ..xtau la betul k x mitos ni..entah2 mkcik penjual tu ckp cm tu just nk suh cermin kt kedai die laku jer..heheheh..whtever..it just a mitos..take it as positive jer...hehehhe..but most important thing is you..ehhehe
and of cours i also cnt wait to see your 'kalung tulang unta'
moga2 u getting bright n bright n bright after wearing that kalungehehhehe....
when he discuss about life, i told him, dont rush in life..coz it is a journey..never ending...lum sbis lgi i ckp, he did interrupt and said, ending la,,,kt liang lahad...hello..i lum abis ckp lgi la..then trus smbung,,never ending but return to HIM...so..both are laughing..hahahahahahah...he told me,,,alim skrang...amek pngajian islam erk kt sane???yes..for btter life..laughing...
sungguh poyo kan kedua2 nye..
whtever pun, wish best of luck for both of us..

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Draco daerie...
thnks for our time...
nice Europe trip heheheeeh
pray the best for you and both of our future..

sunshine of mine....

2010-04-26T16:31:00.004+08:00

sunshine is everywhere now...everthing back to nature, tree with its leaves + flowers..everything is in order...everything occupied the law of nature...colorful of flowers and greenish, yellowish of leaves...alhamdullah..thnk you AL-mighty...march and april of mine smoothly went well...alhamdullah...3 big task done perfectly with true colors....I'd have 3 fruiytful blessed from Al-mighty...Ya Allah.see how sweet YOU'd give me...."Innallaha ma'ana, man jadda, wa jadda, kun fayakun"..im proud, i am blessed with all this...i realizing,...you'd take one from me, but you gave me so many things,many people, many feelings, and the most importnt is uncountless blessed...i redha with all the ujian that you gave me...now, i am walking on a runway, wearing a pretty dress with a pair of high heels....Flashing of lights with clicking sounds from cameras added up to the music’s beat... I can see people I loved standing and cheering their support. ..Some waved, some smile with teary eyes, and some smirk with their smug eyes....I smile to those who smiled, I wink to those with teary eyes and I stare deep into those smug eyes....I am yet to see the end of the runway...This is a long runway, indeed..a long journey with never a destination..Ya ALLAH, please give a your blessed...guide me whenever, whatever i did...blessed me with your light to walk in...show me the best way to footpath...ameen...

1 more fruitful blessed...

2010-04-21T10:12:00.003+08:00

Alhmdullh.....
one more fruitful blessed....
thnk you Al-mighty..
thnk you mummy n abah...
thnk you my siblings....
thnk you my buddy
thnk you my frenzs...
thnk you everyone...
im happy..yeyeeee

"man jadda, wa jadda..."
"innallah ha ma'ana..."
"kun fayakun"

sealed with love..

2010-03-23T14:58:00.003+08:00

Memories should not be tangible.
It should be in our heart, sealed it with love and all strength.
Even, there will be time when we feel like the memories are fading and being wiped away. When this happen, we tend to relate it with events happening in life.
But the truth is, those events can't touch our memories.
reminds us everything .
reflect us everything..
It's our ego and fear that allow us to feel infuriated by the events.
Human mind decayed and we must accept the fact and move on. Even, its too hurt and hard to do so, and moving on doesn't mean that we have to forget.
It's here, in our heart, for as long as Allah allows us to keep.
Allah blessed to remember.

me:mum, i takut la tuk sume2 ni?
mummy:y nk tkut lak?y tkut ngn kytaan? or tkut ngn diri u sndri?smpai bile?u have to be yourself. Dia dh bahagia dh kt sane..u pun kena bhagia jugak la kt sini.Dia pun bhagia bile u bahagia.im sure he's happy bile u happy jugak..die bkan saje2 tgllkan u kan,u kena redha la, die sayangkan u, tp Allah lg sayang die..
me: ma, its too early..im not ready.
mummy:u fikir la baik2..u buat la kptsn..

go to hell please!!!!!

2010-03-23T14:15:00.002+08:00

please don't show up your "STUPIDITY" to the world...
u can claim everything but the truths is????
im pretty sure,
YOU TOTALLY NOT EXISTED AT ALL FOR HIM
who are YOU????
such a thick face you'd have...
please go to hell..could you???

spring of life....

2010-03-21T20:04:00.003+08:00

winter is over, welcome spring..pokok akan ade daun semula dan akan mule berbunga.....yeyye..happy..spending my weekend with my aunty...had a big bfast + lunch..vegee lasagna + onion spring pasta + chicken roll bread + crispy roti canai with ice cream (even dh makan ngn my sis's frenz before),sizzling lamp pasta, choc cheese cake, carrot cheese cake, hot choc, morrocco pizza + blueberry ice blended...then headed to her frenz house (uncle mustafa + aunty aishah) for lepaking...

both of them are a good frenz time dorang kt canada dulu..uncle mustafa n aunty aishah(canadian) were married time dorang 2nd year...i kguum sgt ngn uncle mustafa sebab die mmg strong person coz mnage to convert his wife and be a real good muslimah..terasa cm malu ngn diri sendiri, rase kerdil sngt2 bile aunty aisahah mule bercerita sal agama islam ngn kitorang..she really amazing..both of them were blessed with 8 kids..sara, the older is 15 years old will accompany us for travel..even only 15 years old, sara sgt ler mature..bile i tanye y u keje prttime?i nk balik malaysia nk jumpe nenek n atuk,nk celebrtae raye ngn dorang,ngn mummy n daddy dorang marah, tp ngn sara dorang xmrh sgt..sdh sgt bile dgr crta sara..best of luck for you sara...

dalam dunia ni, allah bgi kite banyak pilihan, banayka cara n jalan kena kite lalui untuk kite dapatkan pilihan tu..kekadang jalan tu senang..mudah jer..kekadang jalan tu ssh sgt..berliku2..tp percaya ler..setiap jalan yg kite lalui itu will end up with a good ending, when lepaking with with my aunty, byk sgt bnda yg i belajer from her."kite ni kena kuat, whtever happen, allah nk mnduga kite, klaua kite leh lalui ujian DIA, maka kite ni tergolong lam prg2 yg berjaya. mugkin ALLAH xmkbulkan lagi ape doa2 kite skrg, tp die akan mkbulkan juga, lambat atau cepat jer, yg penting kite kena kuat,aggpla ape yg allah bagi kt kite adalah yg terbaik tuk diri kite" conthnyer, ncle mustafa n aunty aishah, walupun family uncle xterima aunty aishah, tp hidup dorang bahagia juga,sebab dorang percaya pada takdir allah..see wht ahppen pada aunty aisah, daripada kristian,die jd seorag muslimah yg taat pada allah,tu adalah salah satu rahmah allah mngasahi mkhluknye, DIA ambil sesuatu dan DIA hadiahkan sesuatu,,yg penting sentiasa sentiase bersangka baik pada DIA..

sekarang, im happy with my life even sometime, i'd miss 'him',..when spoke to my frenz, he used to say that, husna, its unfair for your future husbnd if u still ingt arwah, y u still nk bersedih ingtkan bnda yg lpas sedangkan u ptt bahgia ngn yiur future husband...nthla, betul gak..thnk you nik,i akan ingt pesan you..i pun doakan u cpt2 bertemu jdh...shahe, my coursemate, wrote on his wall,"jgn membazirkan rindu pada sang pelangi, kerna pelangi bukan tuk dimilki"..im too touching with that..emosi lebih la i ni kan..shahe, thnk you..i'll move on n will be 'nana yg dulu'..
if allah blessed, this coming september, im getting married.Ya ALLAH, if he is my future husband, please blessed us..jadikan aku dan die yg terbaik tuk satu sama lain...ameen..
"sidhus,im sorry for everything,i'll promise, i'll take care of you, be a good person for you, be agood frens for you, be a good buddy for you, be a good wife for you, be a good mother for our kids,"
Ya Allah, engkau permudahkan segala urusan kami..berikan kami kekuatan untuk mgharungi kehdpn bersama.permudahkan urusan pembelajaran kami...ya allah kami mohon petunjuk mu..ameennnnn...

snow is over..lets enjoys the spring..
HUSNA, let enjoys your present life..
appreciate all the person who care n love you..

You...

2010-03-17T17:39:00.004+08:00

Dear Al-mighty..
i pray for miracles to happen.
i pray for the strength to get through it.
i pray for the peace of mind to move on.
coz i believe in YOU, you have something BETTER you'd plan.
ameen..

(to k.aza dearie, i wish to see you oneday..i wish to have a bottle to store all the time i'd have.)

sakit kerana cinta?

2010-03-16T17:05:00.004+08:00

is listening to krisdayanti's song..cm best jer lagu ni.,lyrics pun lots of moral values..yes..of courses..kekadang kite rase diri kite ni kuat sgt tuk semua benda..sume benda leh buat, sume benda leh hadapi...walhal turn out with mnngis n merintih sendiri...thats a life..everytings is unplan n unexpected...everything is/was a surprise..just face it for the sake of life...coz the Al-mighty did plan the best for us..yang penting redha n bersyukur..
hurmp...ok..let enjoys the lyrics.

Aku ini wanita biasa
Bisa sakit luka karena cinta
Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih hatiku

Kekasih hatiku maafkan aku
Aku wanita biasa

Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih
Hatiku… maafkan aku..

with a loving memory
AL-FATIHAH
you're always in my loving memory...

fruitfull bless

2010-03-15T15:22:00.002+08:00

12 march 2010.....

hang out with "doc to be"...my old school-mate ....
lepaking with full of awesome n crazy talks..
my tourist guide here...heheheee
most of them sedang buat phd in mechanical eng...
some sedang jadi househusband tuk isteri2 masing2....
and ade gk yg jd nanny tuk baby n wife masing2...
somehow,,looking at their life,,i felt jealous..
even hidup dorang biase2 jer....tapi dorang happy...
even kekadang xde duit sbb schlar lmbt mauk..tp they manage to face it
(up and down of student life)...
anyway,,
dear zura + husband, dila + roy + bby akil=tqvm for lovely travel trip,korang mmg best...akil dearie..u so cute..nnti aunty + pakcik mandikan akil lgi k..next week tdo ngn aunty lagi tau..biar mummy n baba akil enjoy...hrhehehee
dear juma + wife =hahahaha. aku mmg suke korang...thnks ..
dear peja + k.am=sedap giler nasi yg korang masak.even with ayam goreng n ikan cicah sambal kicap...sedap...mmg typical mlysian la ...
to ayai n mc nor=korang maih belum halal..so phm2 ler..ehheheh
to dek lin, suzi, akmal, biha, njwa=thnks.,,geli la..xyh pgil 'kak nana'..cm pelik jer..hahaha.....hahah.its ok..
lepak n travel trips ngn korang memang best!!!!
(gmbar i'll upload at FB later, lupe bwk usb)

15 march 2010
just received my sis msg 'abe li n his frens was there attending his talk'..i gave ur cntac no to them..y they are here? ade presentation as proton agent..oooooo
2 hour later,,jumpe dorang..
had a long discussion n borak2 ilmiah n makan..
tetibe plak teremosi nk makan roti canai..
padahal xpernh n xsuke makan pun..
so i've crispy roti canai with ice cream...OMG giler mahal almost RM10 ++..
xper ler..makan jer ler selagi leh makan...
pelik sggh kan, bile kt sini nk plak makan roti cnai....
tp bile kt tmpt sndri, pndng pun xmau..geli ler....xmkn kedai mamak ler..
tu ler..bile pikir2 balik....
unik nyer manusia ni kan...
esp myself..

Next week
more trip with them..inysaallah
mybe nk pekena "ikan beracun"ehheheh + cycling

you're man, man !!!

2010-03-05T16:08:00.000+08:00

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings–nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And–which is more–you’ll be a Man, my son!

-Rudyard Kipling-

mata hati...

2010-03-02T12:39:00.003+08:00

semalam otw nak balik ke ms garden, tetibe jer cm panik + sedih +sayu..perasaan yg bercampur baur...cm ternmpak plat krta thats is significant..and muler ler pikir bukan2..sape die tu??nape plat no.tu ade kat kete die?nape?so many questions being asked by myself???whts is the stupid feeling..wake up husna..xperlu ngis n semakkan otak you pk bukan2 okeyyy..
then, terus masuk bilik,,amek hp, text of of our frens..thnks allah..thats not his no.....
perform my solat mghrib and recite yassin n doa..
"i miss him"
Al-FATIHAH

DIA

2010-02-26T07:33:00.000+08:00

"Allah sedang berbicara dengan kamu".dekatkan denganNYA,nescaya kamu akan tenang,diberkati,dirahmati..berbicaralah,Allah pasti mndengr lantas DIA akan mnjwabnya...berbicara,hanya DIA tmpat untuk berbicara...AL-FATIHAH...

hoorayyyyyyyyyyy

2010-02-21T13:07:00.002+08:00

hoorayyyyyyyyy.....
finished all the dcmnt filling....
waiting the approval and exact date....
frenz..do and keep pray for me..
insyaallah...
i can see the rainbows.....
ameennn

"when trying to touch the sky,make sure your feets are on the grounds"

chaiyok2!!!

2010-02-20T23:40:00.003+08:00

20 feb 2010...
lunch pun nk bagi roses ker???eeii...i dont like it...eeeiii mybe i bukan yg jenis rmntik kot atau lebih tepat lagi heartless kot...nthla...mls nk pikir.dulu with my yukikaze, he'd said that i ni heartless aka ego..mybe kot..mlss nk pikir.btw, thnk you for your rosess and lunch meal yg sedap n yg paling special is sambal tumis specially made from your tngan2 keras you hehheee.honestly,,i enjoyed it.sorry sgt2 sbb i dpt nk lyn you elok2..you pun tau kan, im still with my memory with 'him'...lagipun, i ni grunch + heartless..huhuuuuhuuu...so do pray for me to be the girl yg penuh ngn sopan sntun n baik n romntik..ehheheeh...

arini emo jer lebih..nthla,,imbalance hormon kot...nak period kot.huhuuuuu,,,bile time2 cmni, si busuk ler yg kena tmpias dulu..asyik2 nk marah n mrajuk jer mmnjg..terase jer mmnjang..huhuuu.tetibe jer bengang ngn someone..nthla.mybe die pun xsengaje kot or mybe im too emotional..or mybe 2-2 kot yg ptt di salahkan,,nthla, mls nk pikir,,but im notice that, he'd changed lately..i'd asking myself,y he changed???because of me?or other reason?dunt know...mls nk semakkan otak nk pikir sal org..lntak la..die dh besar,dh tua, pandai2 ler pikir sndiri..yg pnting, im happy with my life now, im getting better..insyaallh will be better here and after, now and forever,insyaallah..

me:ma, y die dh lain erk?
mama:nth,mne ler mama tahu..u kan suke2 die,ptt nyer u la yg tahu..
me:mane ade..suke ler..die kan kwn nana..
mama:yer la tu..mybe die tahu kot u nk g jauh..
me:mmg die tahu pun.
mama:u bgtau die ker?
me:bgtau, tp bgtau sal keje..sal ni die lum tahu..
mama:oo yer ker..biar jer ler..fokus ngn your stdy jer ler..xyh nk pkr2 ngn die.
me:tp nana pelik la ma, sbb dulu die ok,tp skrg die dh xok..
mama:biarler, u pun dh leh terima keadaan n org lain kan, so biar ler la..buat ap u nk die stkat nk ingt kt shrhlmi..at the end of the day, die suffer, u pun suffer..so better let go jer die ..
me:urmpphh..ok ler..but die baik ler ngn nana,,dulu, bile nana sdh2,,die sllu ade ngn nana, ktorng shre the same sadness..
mama:think forward dear..
me:ok..

almost midnight,,mata dah start mngntuk..huhuu..but all the important documents yg nk kena isi haven't finish yet..huhuuuu...tgk ler..kalau rajin stay up..kalau malas, continue esok jer...huhuhu...xboleh2..kena siapkan mlm ni gak, esok dh xde mase coz sunday is moronggeng time..ehhehe..so nk xnk kena siapkan mlm ni gak..lagipun,,ade 'org tu' dh siapkan sume dcment2..so xle2..kena siapkan gak mlm ni..ehheheh.
ok..stop blogging n cntinue for dcmnt filling...

Blossom!!!

2010-02-19T09:44:00.008+08:00

rase nyer cm dh lame dh x jenguk blog ni..nthla...still out of mood, unfinished business with myself..but a little bit ok compare with past 3 months..to say that im OK is tipu ler..coz i'm still can't move on.but i bersyukur sgt2 coz i've so many people ( including you who is reading my blog rite now hahahha..) who really concern about my situations.nway,thnk you very much for your thought of concern on me...
i think now, im ok..i can think rationally why ALLAH take him...hurmmmp, and i believed that, ALLAH will give me somethings or someone or someplaces or some of everything that 'THE BEST FOR ME'..ALLAH tidak kejam,coz ALLAH only did testes hamba2nya yang terpilih equivalently with their strength and capabilities..so,im one of them.

8 years be with 'him' is like a lesson time, and on last 1 november 2009 is my graduating ceremony to end it off.so i've to move on..no more repeating lesson even though its too hard to letting go...ALLAH did plan something better for me n him..so, just redha.bi, you're always in my loving rememberance sayang...
AL-FATIHAH...
"Ya ALLAH, ko ampunkan segala dosa2 kami ya ALLAH, Engkau tempatkan Shrhlmi di tempat2 org yg soleh ya ALLAH.aku bersykur pada mu YA ALLAH, selama ini die menyayanngi ku seikhlas hatinya sehingga ke akhir hanyanya, ya ALLAH, sesungguhnye Engkau telah makbulkan doa2 kami ya allah, sekiranye kami bukan untuk satu sama lain, biarla maut sahaja yg memisahkan kami..YA ALLAH, berikan ketenangn kepada ku diatas pemergian die YA ALLAH,ya ALLAH,terimala ibadat die ya ALLAH, berilah kesempatan untuk aku bertemu dengannya di akhirat kelak ya ALLAH, YA allah tempatkan die di tempat org2 yg soleh.amemmnnnnnnnn.....

semalam,just got call from one of my professor.we have long talking and discussing so many things.alhamdullilah...both of us are accpted and we'll start our new life as before..life happily together, study together and do everything together, insyaallah..im happy and prouds being myself coz proff said that 'husna, 8 years you with him,its enough already, both of u live happily.so now you have to start a new life for you, so you already left you 8 years for achieve your dream,,so now its the times for you,so one of the reasons allah amek die dulu is allah nk you cncntrate ngn life u,stdy you, ngn dream you..i bangga ngn you n siddiq dulu,only u both muslim n malay stdnt yg dpt anugerah cnselor...3.90 is satu pncapaian yg sgt2 membanggakan...i ingt lagi time convo tu, pakcik u, DR.Azhaili, bangga ngnn u n peluk on stages,i happy sgt tgk u n siddiq same2 dpt ..kan lps tu i jumpe u bedua ..so u have to keep up..now, u both have to start a new life..look at your back history, im sure you'll get back and be one of excellent proffesor one day,so,do the best.i'll always pray tuk kamu berdua. y cari org lain, sedangkan you was everything for siddiq,saat u bagtau u bertunang ngn org lain, i tell my wife n she did cried.she want you n siddiq..but we just pray..allah decide everything,but now, allah did listen and answer our prayers. when me met your parent last times, they want you hold your phd first before you married..but they cant stop you coz they wanna make you happy..so im sure enough they are happy now coz they get back you.

proff. i know that proff..im degil.im selfish,but no matter what i do LOVE HIM in my loving memory..my parents n family n friends get back me as before.dont you worry,i've times for them..now, i enjoy my happiness with them..Proff.thnk you coz being my second daddy..now on, i'll focus on my stdy,..8 years is more thn enought for us to be somebody..so do keep pray for me.."

to kwn2,,thnks coz always be with me.terharu sgt2.promise,u'll get me back as before...

to my yukikaze aka si busuk..
AL-FATIHAH
you're always in my loving rememberance...

i can see the rainbow???

2010-01-27T15:31:00.003+08:00

im like crazy now...crying, crying, crying, crying, crying crying..im crying...crying and crying and crying again and again and agaian..whats the stupid feeling actually inside my mind???i miss my yukikaze "si busuk nana"...im miss him...miss averything about him n us..damn miss him..almost 100 days he leave me..i damn miss him..ya allah, please give me strgth to face all this...damn hate myself of being crying all the times..huhuuu...my mummy dis ask me.y u're crying?mane ade!so?then terus menangis n ngis n ngis lagi.i dont like to see you like this..u have me, abah, baby, kakak, rayyan,teh, yen..apidh..graddy, granny, all my family members..so y you still like this..mama xsuke tgk u cmni..mama pun jd serabut n tnsion tgk u cmni..just forget him.he at better plce rite now..so please think about your future..your life..please dear, mama xsuke u cmni..ma,sorry..i just miss him..just recite al-fatihah to him..xperlu u nk ngis2 lgi...mama, dh lame sgt dh shrhlmi xcall nana, xckp ngn nana, xtgk muke nana,xjumpe nana..nana rindu die..please..dont be TOO STUPID dear..die kn dh MATI.,nana phm kan,,die dah M.A.T.I...jgn pikir lagi...kalu rindu die,,sedekah la al-fatihah kt die..thats the best things only u can give him..

with all of our loving memory
AL-FATIHAH

Husna !!!!!

2010-01-21T19:55:00.003+08:00

Of what I have experienced about certain things, do not look back of things that have passed. Regardless how dreadfull it was. It makes you weaker everytime you think about it and if you realise how fragile yourself are, keep away from them. Delete the memories, and go make a change for it. Better one, of course. And, don’t ever repeat the mistakes you have done once again. It`ll make yourself seems stupid!!!!Breathe clean air once again. Appreciate REAL people that ought to have it. Acknowledge their existence and don’t be an ignorant towards any matters in front of you. heyyy..WAKE UP husna!!!!

rindu kamu.........

2010-01-18T17:56:00.002+08:00

Rindu kamu.....

rindu kamu.........

rindu kamuuuuuuuuuu.........

sayang kamuuuuuuuuu...........

with loving memory........

you're always in my rememberance..

AL-FATIHAH........

15 jan 2010...

2010-01-17T10:24:00.003+08:00

15 jan 2010

thursday

starting my new life of my new world

alhamdulillh..i stillhave a chnce to live in..

to create a new life for new wolrd..

to improved everything of past life..

to innovate all the things for better quality of life

may first year old of me will give a significane of my life'values

for a great life..

now im realizing, allah is fair to me, to us, to all, to everyone

HE only give the best in everything, in everyway HE blessed..

hi hottie..happy getting older

happy birthday nana,,

wish you happiness + joy + bliss + blessful in life

Viel Spass zum geburtstag

O tanjoubi odemetto gozaimasu

Selamat hari Jadi...

husna, getting older means being wiser and more responsible for your actions. Being through so many things in the past and excited for whats next. Im hoping that you will be a great doctor, a wonderful daughter, a cheerful friends and you will be the best wife someone can ask for. The past is too far to reach again, but the future is there for you..(K.yanie cheq, holland)

yummmy...

mama, abah, kakak,baby, apidh, teh, yenn kimy, rayyan, graddy,granny +Frenz..

thnks for all the birthday wishes (fb, call, sms), birthday present, birthday cake, birthday rose, birthday treat..

i do really appreciate..

thnks everyones. i love you..

????beyonds besday celeb????

2010-01-17T09:46:00.007+08:00

Beyonds birthday celebration with good frenz of me..

Pak J, Mr.Ibb and K.budi..

Mee jawa was superbeb + sedap sgt2..

sipa nk bertambah2 lagi..

nasi beriyani daging Pak J pun sgt lazat sampai licin..

pink of air bandung k.budi sedap...

light black of nescafe o ice for me xbest sebab manis agt n a little bit phit2 sket..xsukerr.

milky borwn of nescafe ice Mr.Ibb sedap kot..sebab die minum sampai abis dan berbunyi2 zurpp...

As cnclusion..the food was seperlazat..

the man was super awesome n beyonds in everysingle seconds

last but not least, averything was great coz tretaed by beyonds man..

Mr.Djunaedi aka Pak J..

anyway,thnks Pak J for the lunch..

with pak j yag berjaya di paw* oleh kami bertiga.

nway thnks pak J.mahalnyer harga baju yg Pak J beli bawak tuk wife..

heheh..1x harga baju = Harga baju + Bill lunch kitorang...

air bandung, ar suam +nescafe, nescafe o ice and teh tarik

the drinks for us..

mee jawa for me,k.budi n mr.bb..

seperbeb n lazat..

4 of us..

3 of us..

proves for the foods was superbeb and lazat

licin!!!!

i'll always love you

2010-01-13T21:34:00.002+08:00

at 2100pm,
just reached and manage to videocalling my loves...
mama just finishes preparing meal for dinner,
abah at masjid for kelas al-quran
baby is on his way back from fishing with 'amat'
teh is online with her boyfrenz "hirul"
yenn is on his way home from 'lepaking'
apihd is busying with his "game"
rayyan is hapily lepaking n bermesra2 mengenal dunia baru with her mummy n daddy
graddy and granny is lepaking n gossiping in their ways
me????is 'jealousy with someone..(nth pape2 al nana ni, perlu ker nk jealous2)..

pretender + liar

2010-01-10T01:37:00.003+08:00

now, my mp3 is playing our song..
im yours..always be my baby..ilham...when you tell me that you love me..hero..repaly, replay and replay...
its remind me to my past memory...to my 'man'...damn hate myself for this stupid feeling....huhuuu..life is terrible..im so scare to think about..scred to think my future or even for tomorrow...nk xnk..i've to..coz life have to go on no matter what happens and how bads it seems today.
"forget the past, enjoy the present, the future will take care of yourself"
bestnyer kan kalu semudah tu kiteleh lupekan benda2 lepas ..if so, im wannna be the first person yang berterima kasih pada ALLAH..hurmp,,but i'll try, anyway.
not too easy actually jadi seorang 'pretender' especially pada family n someone that closed to you..you kena work hard to get the best output..how to act normlly in front of people that you love most then???u kena pretend diri u tuk nampk happy supaye dorang sume happy tgk you happy..even hakikanyer you menangis n menangis n menangis..

dh..xnk merepak lagi...dfntly..i'll enjoy my present life without forgetting my past life..is fair enough rite..in fact,i got both..past and present.

ok off to bed...but tetibe my hp berbunyi..azlan did call me..whts up???hhahaha..nape call lagi??td kn u dh cl??it too costly la u call i selalu ni..nape u xsuke?xle..it too costly..baik u call mak u tu..hahha..jgn ler ckp cmtu..so ade pe ni?xler,i saje jer nk dgr suare u...nti smggu i kt site..nti xle nk cntc u dh..hahah poyo ler u ni lan..u pnh ker rindu i??bukan stkt rindu u..frust ngn u pun pnh..frust hinngga kan i pnh bercinta ngn pompuan lain..hahahah..i xtau..that s not my problem at all,.
nana, u wat per?i nk tdo.ye er..could i have your time leh x?hahah..u ni kelakar ler..bukan ke i tgh ckp ngn u ke ni??xle..i tkut u nk ltak hp jer sbb u kan dh nk tdo..ok..nk ckp ngn i, cepat ckp..nti i tertido.xde pape ler.saje jer..i nk bgtau nti i xdpt nk cntc u week..u dh bgtau i la td..ni dh 3 akli dh u bgtau..eeeeiiii hlang ingtan kejap la..poyo la u ni.u ade pape2 nk ckp ngn i???hahah..i xde ape ler nk ckp ngn u sebab i nk tdo..i ngntuk???ok la..husna,,u jgn sedih2 tau..kalu u ingt kt awah, u sedekah alfatihah tuk die..u jaga diri u.nti i balik dari site, i cntc you..ok..bye, t.cre.u pun.

"how to love somebody you never love"
love kinda make you hate your self

"mencinta tidak semestinya memiliki"
memiliki pastinya akan memilik

ya allah,, ku takut sume2 ni..aku xlayak untuk smua2 ni.
ya allah..ko permudahkan urusan hidup aku.kalau ler betul mereka2 itu adalah untuk aku, ko tunjukkan la..kalau tidak, biarler dorang pergi jauh2 dari hidup aku..amennn.

with love of rememberance
AL-FATIHAH

makan2 gemukkan badan..

2010-01-09T12:52:00.005+08:00

yesterday

was like falling in love for the first time

with roasted blackpepper chicken and sizzling wantan mee @ uncle K with my great sister.

Off to shop a dress for my mummy...

end up with 2 black dress for her and my sis + baby t for myself....

the great lunch with a great sister with a great meal
all was awesome..

another the moment to remember after little rayyan was born..

today of awesomeness..having a breakfast with preggy mum of fataha n bonda ain

mee jawa azlan

2010-01-08T11:17:00.005+08:00

sweet night dream...had a chatt with minurso man,sampai tertido2 depan la.top..tersedar2 dh pagi n subuh gajah pun dh far away from me..hehhehe..'dh linch?semestinya dah la..u??aii..sini dh mlam la..spptutnye u tye i dah dinner ke lum???hahahah sorri..i lupe ler la..hahaha..dh dinner???dh..ptg td..lets me guess ape u lunch arini..hahah..nasi ngn sambal tumis ikan bilis..dfntly wrong dear..arini i makan mee jawa...hahah..u mkn mee jawa..mane u dpt??i masak la..ehhh i slh dengar ke aper n??btul ler..i masak..cm xcyer jer u leh mask mee jawa..yer ler..i la masak..mak i kan ade kedai mee..xcye,,nti i masak tuk u..ok.bolehhh22..sure bolehnnyer..,.sedap ke u masak..biase2 jer..bolehla..tu yg i xnk try yg u masak tu..dh agak dh xsedap..
kite kna humble..mak i ajr jd humble....jgn ckp kite masak sedap..biar org yg rase je ckp sedap..ye la tu, ape resipi mee jawa..
ala..senang jer..
ni resepiyer

"blend bawang, bawang putih, udang pepai, pastu tumis ngan serbuk kari,
da sebati letak gula, garam dan aji sket, gula biar lebey sket, pastu letak kntg rebus yg da blend,
then,tggu masak la,kntag blend tu la jd kuah.mkan ler ngn mee celur,letak telur rebus, limau, daun bawang dan kentang"

ooo yer ker..
then...makan smpai knyang..then tdo..then jadi gemuk..
then jadi ler DR gemuk yg memang gemuk..
u pun gemuk gak ler..
dua-dua pun gemuk..
i gemuk pun cntik,,cute,,hehe.
yer ler2..u gemuk cantik,,i ni gemuk xensem
sape ler i..

pape2 jer...counting the day??

messy of me???

2010-01-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when lay myself on my bed ,suddenly my mind keep on thinking,,Petty imbeciles sometimes made me hard to breath...dang it all, why must all good things come to an end very fast. Kadangkala aku tak faham mengapa sukar untuk rasa bahagia yang lama.. kekadang rase cm life is so unfair for us..Adakah sebab aku ini yang tak pernah puas dengan apa yang pernah aku dapat atau sebenarnya manusia sekeliling aku yang berubah? Yes I know that world hasn't come to an end yet but it seems like I am ending my own happiness in my whole life, tuhan tu kan adil..DIA dengar and DIA dengar ape yg kite luahkan.just sabar..doa byk2..berserah seikhlasnya..sure DIA makbulkan…ameennnn

Who would've thought I can be freaking paranoid which literally annoys the living daylights out of people surround me? Bila aku kenang semula, im too selfish kepada banyak pihak lain ..and for God's sake, I never meant to hurt anybody. You know you're as perfect as white roses.. I could see my dream's contemplation in your eyes. it's on your shoulder, I found the courage to move on. you'd always hold me close, whenever I was about to fall. and when I'm lost in the darkness, you'd always be the light that guided me through..See how sucks I am, I never try to hold u tight, I never try to appreciate your kind and love, I never try to let go all the stupids feeling to the gone’s love.....,

I’d thik,,, mengapa tuhan ciptakan keegoan. Betul kata mama, perasaan yang paling dibenci ialah bila you rindukan seseorang..Rindu itu memang benda yg teruk sgt… sebab kite sanggup korban bermacam benda untuk bayar erti kerinduan itu….rindu sebab jiwa kite kosong???is’t true???gone???clueless…But when it comes to egoism, how could you handle this, it annoys me so much this few months and I hardly can find any remedies to cure it.. we are able to handle ourselves , but tak boleh control orang lain...Walaupun u did it psychologically, it will actually psycho u back then..trust me.. Tapi percayalah, lelaki ialah makhluk tuhan yang sungguh indah..Sangat predictable, namun, jangan sangka mudah untuk memenangi mereka.,, sebab pngakuan jujur from one of my frenz,MKF said, “EGO kah lelaki?ego kah aku..yes..aku ego di setiap tempat,,lelaki perlu ego”..malas nk pikir..so messy rite ow..

Bila aku driving lately, aku selalu cuai..I lost my concentration and mind..Aku cakap aku kosongkan minda tapi i should'nt do that… dh berape kali dh exsident..langgar kete org lain..dh bape kali dh kete aku bergesel ngn kete org lain…TATAM, sory sgt2..huhuuuu..damn hate myself..nape still cmni lagi.Aku sibuk fikirkan benda2 lepas,,ingt kenanga2 lepas,, aku sibuk fikirkan orang yang dh xde.. Ya ALLAH..nape aku still cmni lagi..“cik husna,sekarang dh 2010 dah..mpknyer 2012, 2021 pun,,cik husna still gak cmni..xde bezanya”..one of my frendz, MHR selalu ckp kt aku cmni bile aku sedih2 n ingt kt die..huhuuuuuu..

With love of rememberance.

AL-FATIHAH…

sunday is friday

2010-01-03T22:50:00.003+08:00

here with holiday mood..
twenty ten mood..
shopping mood..
yess.. sunday is friday @ tgi..
had a great late lunch at tgi
erlk..nk muntah..eat a lot and a alot..
wgd potata was awesome..
blueberry shake + watermelon
jackie grill chiken..
off to suway pyramid for shoes n shirt hunting..
just for new life of twenty ten of mine..
yess..a new life of me..

Prosperous Welcoming of "10"

2010-01-03T10:27:00.018+08:00

year of 2009 its like an astro.."macam2 ada".
but in the end i've realized
Allah only gives us the best in life, nothing less..
well,twenty ten its my turn to open my heart
and welcoming new things in new life
i have to stop hanging on the old tree
and go for the stronger, younger and fruiter ones
who knows, the fruits might taste sweeter than the ones before
but the ones are forever in my rememberance..
being able to experience variety of fruits
would make me understand life more
and the more i understand about life
the more lesson i'll gained
the more better and strong i'll be
the more happier i'll be
insyaallah....

counting d minute for twnty ten

nice,,i love this..ice with thsnd of meaning
wishes all the happiness will comes to me..
insyaallah..when the time n ALLAH permit so..
happiness will with me ever and after..

reddish orange of sky..
its a good sign of glorious happiess
insyaallah

love this..
huhuu..bright for the happiness

good starting for twenty ten..
with prosperity beef burger..
tahnks dudezs for tha good22 night spending..
its a good night ..

get parcel from siddid on last day of 2009..
happy????%^&*_*&^
siddid dearie..thnks for this..
its gonna make me happy
pray that your wishs and doa's are always with me.
im happy having you in my life..
thnks for wonderful n great life u'd giving me..
much thks n love..
may this year be forever your years

last for 09

2009-12-31T14:13:00.007+08:00

arini last day for 09..ermmm..nthla..tibe2 hati sedih n sayu jer..then ngis2.ngis,ngis n ngis lagi.tibe dpt msg from 'si gem'..reply his msg and tell him im crying..."nape cmni,xsuke le nana cmni.jgn ler sedih.kuat la sket nana". videocall with him, dg xmalunye pick up vdeocall with crying face, then tunjuk gmbo shrhlmi..huhuu..im crying.."nana, jgn la ngis, nana jgn le tgk gmbo die lg, nti nana sedih.die kn dh xde, cmne nana nk jumpe die.kite kn xle jumpe dh org yg mati.xsuke ler nana cmni..kuat ler sikit nana.sume org tahu die sayang nana,tu dh jd kekuatan dh tuk nana jd kuat tau..nana kuat la sikit tau..xsuke ler nana cm ni.jgn cni tau nana..jgn selalu2 tgk gmbo die lagi tau"

sedih...good bye 2009.welcome 2010.sedih..2010 dftly without shrhlmi, Yaallah, is'it im strong enough to live without him?

Shrlhlmi, i miss you so much..
damn miss you dear..
you're alway i my rmmbrnce
AL-FATIHAH

him of yukikaze

2009-12-28T14:02:00.002+08:00

When he makes fun of my laugh
I get defensive
But then remember that he has a funny laugh too

When he shows me off to his friends and family
I get the feeling that he's proud of me
No matter what I do and who am i

When he says he loves me
I feel like a little small girl
I get all excited and feel butterflies

When he got down on his knee, with the sunset in the background, and asked me to marry him
That’s one time in my life that words could never describe.."

the beginning of a lifetime together~~~~~~`
but now, he not with me anymore
ALLAH loves him more than i do
ALFATIHAH,,,
you are alway in my remeberance.

stress theraphy???

2009-12-27T01:08:00.009+08:00

stress threaphy..
best..enjoyed..time to forget everything bout sickness, sadness, stressness,lonelyness bla blaa
get back holiday moods.. looking for my birthday present..huhhuhuuuuhh...handbang (guess), silk shwl, shoes (bonia), trnech coat (kenny ng), baby T + long slve (guess), jeans (levis + guess).huhuuuuu pokai sgt2 dh ni.xper, as long puas ati untuk mengubat jiwa yg luke..
(jiwa luke???)